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i know i don't post much here anymore. not much is going on. i have been reading a lot this year. i can tell you what books i have been reading if you want to know. i have been selling a lot (a lot in my opinion. may not actually be a lot in other people's opinion) on ebay and amazon. so i spend lots of time cleaning out my room and i find things that i think might sell well on ebay. it is kinda interesting that the items i think will sell right away don't and the ones that i think won't sell but want to try sell in the first week. kinda weird. like i sold a vest i wore only once and it was gone in a week and i sold a flannel nightgown that i never wore and it was gone in a week too. i never thought they would sell but i didn't want them anymore so i thought i would try and they are gone! i put 2 bath brushes on an ebay listing and they were bid on in the first day! i was soooo surprised. and more people are interested in it so it will be interesting to see what the...

i know i haven't been here in a long time. i am not sure anyone really reads this anymore. so i guess sometimes i don't feel like posting if no one is going to read it. this summer has been weird. some things have happened and weird feelings have been around and i don't know how people would take it and i sometimes aren't comfortable talking about it. but then i do want to talk about it and i don't know who to talk about it with. i never am the person that people come talk to their problems with and so i guess i am not sure i can get my feelings out there either. so i guess i have been just keeping things to myself and things happen that i don't really want to happen and i wish i could just tell people things and not made to feel stupid when i say them.

so last week i had someone bid on an item that i had on ebay and win it. so i sent several invoices and tried to communicate with the bidder. so after a week, i opened an upaid item case with ebay. the bidder all of a sudden said why am i getting this? i said because you won an item and haven't paid for it yet. they said they didn't want it and didn't think that they had bid on it. well guess what you did and if you didn't want it why did you bid on it in the first place? and i asked why they didn't say anything when they got the first invoice? they gave some lame excuse. thanks for wasting my time. i hate people that waste my time on ebay. i have had a lot of scammers bid on my items and i haven't been selling that long on ebay. oh well. selling on ebay gives me money. not a lot but some so i can bid on stuff too. i still don't know what to do with my old ipod. any ideas? does anyone actually read this anymore? just wondering.

i am so surprised at some of the stuff that people will buy on ebay. i listed a whole bunch of magazines that i didn't want anymore on there and about half of them were bid on! i was surprised anyone was interested! so like 2 weeks ago i got a new 120gb ipod. so i listed my old ipod on ebay. well the bidding got up to $100 and then i go and drop the ipod while i was getting it ready to ship and the stupid screen cracked! out of all the times that i dropped the thing it had to choose that time to actually break! it made me soooooo mad. so then i had to go tell the buyer that it had a cracked screen but it still worked and that he didn't have to pay for it if he didn't want to. now i have no idea what to do with the thing. i guess i can relist it with a cracked screen but i don't know if anyone would want to actually buy it now. i think the world hates me. i got my own post office box today. i figured that i need to have it so that i won't be giving out my home addr...

so yesterday was my birthday. so i am now 23. nothing fun about it really. i did almost nothing at all. i read a book. we went to outback and i had 2 strawberry daquires. i got a couple of cards and some books (thanks robin! :) ) anyway that pretty much sums up my day. not a bad day but i always think that maybe something surprising will happen. for some reason i have always wanted a surprise party. i don't know why. so i have to figure out what i want to do with my life. i have no idea what i want to do. like if i went back to school what do i want to do there? or what kind of job do i want to do? uugghhh i have no idea what i want to do with my life. this is so frustrating. most people know what they want to do by the time they are 23.

so next week is my birthday. since my birthday is on a friday i thought it would be cool to have a party actually on my birthday. i was thinking about a cookout or pizza party instead of going to a bar. i find bars to be loud and all. i am just not sure how to plan a good party that people would want to come to.

i really probably should take the gmat or gre and get it over with. i am not even sure i want to go to graduate school but i should take the tests while i still remember stuff and the scores last for 5 years so i can use them if i change my mind. i don't even know what i want to go to graduate school for. i am still trying to get a job. i have had only 1 job interview and it turned out to be a waste of time because they just filled it internally. they should have thought of that first before they wasted anyone's time interviewing people. sales are picking up a little bit on my ebay and amazon stores. someone finally paid for an item they won a week and half ago. i was about to put an upaid dispute case on them. and a couple of days ago someone bought some accounting thing i had for my accounting class. someone has also finally bid on this nice watch i had listed on ebay. i have had it on there for like 3 weeks. i so totally wish i could win the lottery. then there wouldn't ...

so i found out that after the interviews and all the time i wasted, they decided to fill the job internally. thanks a lot. it was a job that i could actually see myself in and was totally excited about and they just tear it down. why waste my time and get my hopes up? the worst thing i have ever done and i didn't mean to do it. so my family has a cat that lives outside. she was getting close to 20 years old. she has always been able to dodge cars and make close calls and all that stuff. so i think she had finally gone deaf. i was leaving to go to the gym and she was right behind the car and she will usually move out of the way but this time she didn't and i didn't know she was there and i ran over her...i felt the bump and i got out to see what it was and it was our cat! i couldn't believe i did that! i feel so sooosososososososososo horrible. i am now the worst person i know and probably the worst person you now know. but i really didn't mean to do it. i can't ...

so i got an interview yesterday. i thought it went pretty well. the lady that interviewed me actually went to UH and got the same degree as i did so i feel like that it might put me at an advantage. (i hope!) i am suppose to know by the end of the week if i get a 2nd interview or not. i hope so! i know it might not work out especially on the first interview but i need something! i liked the sound of the job and the office looked cool and all. i hate waiting for things to happen. i am still selling things online. for a week or so i was doing really well and i had sold a lot of stuff. but now things have pretty much stopped and someone even wants to return something because it doesn't "work". my description of the item was accurate and i guess i couldn't verify that it did work before i sent it because i haven't used it in years and i put that on the description. but i sent them a link to a help page for that item. we will see if they actually send it back or not.

so on thursday and friday i am taking a quickbooks class. at first i didn't really want to take it but mom and dad were really pressuring me to take. so now that i have signed up for it, it doesn't sound too bad. something to add to my resume and it is only a 2 day class. it is all day for 2 days but then i am done. if it goes well, i might take the 2nd quickbook classes. they aren't credit classes but they are continueing education classes. which makes more sense for me to take because i already have a degree and i just really need more skills. they aren't too expensive either. this one was $99. they all are about this much or less. i think it depends on the class and how long it is. a week or 2 ago i was having a great run of selling things on ebay and amazon. i sold like 5-10 things within a couple of days. i was doing really great. now everything is dead. the only action i have had was someone bidding on my stuff and then asking to cancel. big pain but he did have a...

does anyone know what joined.com is? here i s the e-mail that mentions it: Hi Allison, I am following up on earlier correspondence regarding your job search. I wanted to touch base to see if you are still looking for work in the Clerical/Administrative field or any other industry. The latest postings are found here . Regards, Katie Jensen Recruiter Dudley Search Group it is the here part that links me to joined.com. i don't know really why this person sent this e-mail to me because it is kinda pointless. i wish they would just e-mail me if they wanted to offer me a job or interview me. i get excited when i get an e-mail from someone that looks like it might be interested in me and then poof they are just basically sending me an ad for some website. has anyone else gotten any e-mails like this? i don't even know how i got on their list because i haven't even applied to that company. i hate waiting for any responses from any of the people i have applied with. after a few days...

today i recieved my diploma! :) it looks pretty nice but there is one part that is wrinkled a bit. oh well i am just happy to have it finally! the company that prints them also does framing and if you order a frame, they will reprint your diploma so that you will have one in the frame and one for your files or whatever. i am thinking about ordering one. it made me really happy to finally have gotten it. kinda makes it like i really did do it and that it is official. i just wish i could figure out the rest of my life...

so i have been filling out job applications and my parents are still on my case about not having a job yet. sorry no one is exactly hiring right now...... i can't force myself on someone until they give me a job. i am still going to take the gmat and apply for graduate school. i hope they at least except me. for the first time i am really scared for my life. i am not sure that my parents want me to talk about this but we sold one of our cars and the guy wants to return it and is really making me scared since he knows where we live. i thought about justing going on vacation to like disney world (the most carefee place in the world!) but then i looked at plane ticket prices and hotel prices and ticket prices to get into disney world and i realized that it is really expensive to do that. i could probably afford it but it is so expensive. the hotel room would be over $1000 for a couple of days! and so would the plane tickets. for tickets to disney world it would be like $250 for a few...

so i finished scanning and editing all my old pictures. it was fun to through all the pictures and to see how weird we used to be. i was thinking about posting them on facebook but i don't know if some poeple would want them on there.

i really feel like i need to get out of here for a little while. i was thinking about going on a trip but i don't know if anyone would want to come with me. i don't want to go alone. i was thinking about going to england. i would like to make use of my passport.

so today it felt like i had just too much stuff. i really felt like i needed to get ride of all kinds of stuff. but a lot of it is like old letters and notes or things that you don't want to get ride of it because you got it on a trip or you made it at camp or something like that. i just feel like if i gave something away, the next day i would wish that i had it back you know? i think that if i had my own apartment or house, i wouldn't feel that way anymore because i would be able to put everything in its own place. like i want to have a library room for all my books and then that would clear up at least 50% of my room. i would be able to displace stuff that i want and hang up all kinds of pictures and stuff. i guess i thought selling stuff on ebay and amazon would be better than they have been. oh well.

so my parents are like you need to apply to graduate school. so i am starting to look into it. i think i may be able to get into sam houston. i have no idea. i first need to take the tests i guess. but i like any schools that do not require any essays or recommendations or anything hard. i have no idea who i would get recommendations from. i would ask some of my teachers but i am afriad they would laugh at me or not remember me when i would ask them for a recommendation. i am so lame.

i really hope this year is better than last year. i guess these are my resolutions this year or at least what i want to accomplish this year. they are almost the same thing. Get a job. or Get into graduate school. either one will do. i want to have some kind of plan for the future. i want to figure out what i am going to do with my life. i thought that after getting the diploma, i would have things figured out but i am a long way from that. lose weight. that is always on my resolution list and it probably will be always on my list. i am mostly ok with my weight. i just want to be able to keep moving and enjoy life. i don't think i will ever be able to be like the people you see on tv that are so heavy that they can't get out of bed. i don't think i could do that. i would be so bored. and i don't think i could stand to see myself like that either. i would like to finish scanning all my old pictures into my computer. that is a project that stopped when i was scanning stuf...

so does anyone out there ever have great expectations for birthdays or christmas or graduation and then always get dissappointed? like i thought for graduation, i thought i would get more than a couple of cards. i always here about people that get really nice cars or for some people some kind of body enhancement. i was kinda hoping for a new car especially since i have been having such bad luck with the cars that my parents let me drive. or i thought that my parents would get me a really nice computer since mine is starting to do wierd stuff! (it freezes up every time i try to edit some videos! and that is after i upgraded the memory). and it seems like everyone was always making fun of me during christmas and for once it wasn't about my weight. and all everyone could talk about is that i need to find a job and what kind of job i should get and all that. no wonder i spent so much time in my room this christmas. i just couldn't stand it anymore. i don't mind some help but...

so christmas break has been pretty good. but it seemed like anyone wanted to talk to me about was if i had gotten a job yet. did i have any interviews that day or any question related to getting a job. it is really getting on my nerves ok! NO i don't know what i want to do and NO i haven't had any job interviews recently. i am sorry that not that many people have jobs open and no i am not going to apply to mcdonalds.....i didn't just spend 4 years in college to work there. i think i should get a better job than that. i guess that sounds bad but seriously! i wouldn't mind being a manager there but not many of those jobs open right now. sometimes i just want to get up a leave and go somewhere else but every time i say that, my parents laugh at me saying that i wouldn't do that. ha! sometimes i just want to show them. i just don't know what i want to do. sorry for all the complaining. it just bothers me that everyone seems to be on my case.