April 30, 2004

ah....the weekend!! the best part of the week!! the part of the week everyone looks forward to!! but today has been the greatest day of my life!!! i got an e-mail from aaron jackson!! i should now change the title to the very exciting life of me but it is all in my head. i should some day have it looked at because i probably have tons of problems that i don't know about like talking about my crush on my blog but that is what a blog is for right? anyway i don't think anyone has looked at this yet so i am safe!!! hopefully!!!

April 29, 2004

it is thursday..almost the weekend!! i love the weekends because i don't have to wake up early. this week has been good because of the taks testing!! i don't have to take it so i can come in at 10:41 am instead of 7:30 am. i am not a morning person really...i would rather sleep in every morning....i still have a crush on aaron jackson....i still can't believe that i said that on the internet where someone might read it and tell him that i like him....but who knows that it is me....i don't know if i put my name in here anywhere but oh well...i will get over it!! only 4 weeks left of my high school career!! i am so excited!!!i can't wait to get away from here!! i have too many bad memories and crushes that hated me!! or said lets just be friends.... i am sortof depressed today... i have watched today that since the teachers didn't have any plans for classes today most people got into groups and played cards or talked and guess what!! i was not included in any of those groups... it isn't totally my fault...people should always ask if you would like to participate in their game or conversation...i was like staring down the group that had aaron jackson in it... they looked like they were having so much fun... i guess i am just a tad bit boring (where do you think i got the title of this page?) but it isn't my fualt...i guess it is because i should speak up more or be more cool or something but part of the problem is all the other gazillion people out there that don't want to talk to me!! i think part of it is that people judge you before they get to know you...they judge you on looks and clothes and what you drive and what kind of house you live in and all that stuff that i think shouldn't matter...yo should get to know the person before you judge them and decide not to be friends with them...i am sorry if i am not as pretty as all the other girls out there or if i don't by name brand clothes form gap or abercrombie and fitch or old navy!! i like the cheap stuff that will probably last longer!! and my car is a ford taurus '95 and i know that it isn't the greatest looking car or the best running one but it is the car i got from my parents and it gets me and my friends from one point to another......at least i won't feel bad if i get in a wreck or something....my first wreck will probably be in the school parking lot because there are other students out there that drive like maniacs!! they get their nice expensive cars right on their 16th birthday and then go zooming off and probably reck it in the first week that they are driving it!! that was a waste of money!!my family has it better than other families because we have been able to buy and insure 4 cars...but all those cars have been used and we were able to buy them all under $10,000....i don't think teenagers need a brand new car right on their 16th birthday!!!so excuse me!!

Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?

April 26, 2004

i am so mad at my computer right now!! i had just written a huge paragraph about my feelings at the moment and then my computer goes all freaky on me!! errr.. and i have a hard time retyping my feelings. anyway i am mad about yearbook and what some people did without me. and i am also mad about who got into top ten percent and who didn't. like i worked pretty hard and i am in the second quarter!! there are some people in the top ten that i don't think deserve to be in the top ten. some people that i had never thought of as smart to be in top ten. i think they got in because they got straight a's in the easy classes while some of us took advanced classes and got a mix of a's and b's some of them are in my computer class and they never do any work. they sit there on the internet and talk the whole time!! while i do my work!! what is up with that!? someone tell me!! next thing that makes me mad is that annie never writes me back!! i have written her like 20 times and she hasn't written me back yet!! do i have a disease that makes people not want to talk to me or sit next to me?? i also hate it when someone from your table starts sitting with someone else without telling you and they only sit next to you when it is the day before your birthday!!! i feel like screaming now. but i have to say this to this out loud: i love aaron jackson!! i will take the risk that he will see that but what are the chances of someone looking on my blog and knowing that it is my blog and knowing who i am talking about.i think i can live with the risk anyway i sort of want him to know. exspecially since i am legal now!! yeah i am 18 years old!! yeah!! some people don't understand why i don't like him. he's funny and good looking and smart- he went to baylor! yeah!! um......more later.....comment if you have any advice!!! since some of my friends aren't around to give it!!
today was yearbook day! i am so glad to get my yearbook! it shows that the year is coming to an end!!! i am so excited about going off to college!! Anyone going to SFA please comment and we can get together and talk and you never now we could be roomies or have the same classes together or go to the parties together (except i don't drink) YES PEOPLE I DO NOT DRINK!!!!! i find that amazing because it seems that 3/4 of my school drinks!!!!oh well!! i will be the only one that will not get liver cancer when i grow old. i plan to not drink in college or anywhere but of course i might change my mind in the future and decide to try a little bit of beer or something. but i am not that interested in it right now.anyway there is only like 21 days left of school and the next 3 days i get to come in late!!! oh yeah!!!