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so thanksgiving was pretty cool. it was fun to have everyone home. lots of food. now murphy is here to live with us until after christmas!! :) i signed up for my classes for next semester. we went to hasta la pasta for my parents anniversary. it was the first time i have ever been there. it was pretty good. i saw shrek the third for the first time this weekend. the first and second ones are definitly better. so the only bad thing this weekend was that i got sick right before thanksgiving. i am still a little bit sick. but recovering. i think i have a super cold or something. i have had my flu shot so i don't have to worry about getting that. but this is the second cold i have had this semester. i sold my first item on amazon.com! yea! i haven't gotten the feedback ratings yet but i sent it the same day as they ordered it so they can't complain about that.

so there is a show on TLC about these people that won the lottery. so i was thinking about what i would do if i won the lottery. here is what i came up with: i would buy myself a NEW car. a jeep grand cherokee or a blue bug i would probably share the wealth a little bit with family and friends. like redo the kitchen in our house. i wouldn't feel pressured to graduate from college right away. i would take my time on figuring out what i want to do with my life. and yes even if i won the lottery i would still work and get a job that i really like. i would probably go on a shopping spree i would probably travel a little bit. put my new passport to use and maybe take people along with me. after i figure out what i want to major in and graduate and get a job i will buy a house or apartment or whatever i find that i like. what would you do?

Happy Birthday Robin!! so school has been ok. i am going to see how all these midterms will go before i do anything. and last weekend my mom said i could get a dog of my own if i get all B's this semester but i don't know if i could do that. i want a dog of my own so bad but i don't know if i can do that well this semester. maybe if that is what i say i want for christmas maybe i will still get a dog anyway.... i guess i will have to wait and see. i was thinking about trying out some management classes next semester to see how i like management. human resource management sounds kinda interesting.

so this semester i have been trying really hard and studying and reading the textbook and everything you know? so why am i practically failing everything? i have no idea. i got a 16 on a major quiz in my java class. i don't know why i am trying so hard. this semester i have studied the most for my classes and i am failing. i didn't used to study as much. i don't know if i can make it through college. maybe i should just go back to community college where i actually got good grades.

so i have gotten into buying things on amazon.com so i recently started a seller's account too to sell some old or duplicate books that i have or just books that i don't want anymore. i think there are only like 5 things on there. but here is a link to my seller's account . if anyone that reads this would like me to sell something for them then just tell me. also i have made a wish list on there. so i was thinking that i can keep that up to date and then i won't have to keep telling everyone at christmas and birthdays what i want. because i can never remember what exactly i want when i am asked. so this is kind of easier. and any random person can buy me something if they feel like it i guess since it is public. i wonder if i can make it so that only a few selected people can see it. like i know i can make it either public or private but is there something in between? oh well here is a link .

i still can't believe it. but i am ajusting a little bit. but i am still really lonely. anyone have a dog that needs a good home? i would love to have another dog. almost any kind as long as they are friendly and lovable. yea right anyone that reads this is going to give away their dog. my mom says that we should wait a while. but i am getting ready. by the time we find the right one, i will be ready. school is ok. i guess it could be worse. ummm.... we didn't have school on thursday so i have had a 4 day weekend! yeah! but i can't focus in school. i still don't know what i want to major in. i don't know what i want to do with my life. that makes going to school even worse. because i feel like i am going there for no reason.

i can't believe this. it is so sad. i can't believe i have to write this. i can hardly believe it. little ben died yesterday around lunch time. it was so horrible. i can't believe this. i have been crying so hard since yesterday. i can't believe i made it through today and all my classes. it was so hard. i know you are probably thinking that it is stupid because he is a dog but a dog can be like your best friend sometimes. he was always there. i can hardly remember a time without him. we got him when i was in the 2nd grade so i was only 7 or 8. but it was a long time ago. i was the one that took care of him the most. he was one of my best buds. it was so hard today to come home and not have him there and to feed him about 5:30 when i usually do. it was so hard yesterday. i can hardly think of anything else. my eyes hurt from all the crying and i feel so empty inside. i am just glad i was there when he died. i think it would have been harder if i just came home from s...

so i am now on my 1 week vacation. i am ready for the fall in the sense that i have paid for my tuition and parking and all the stupid fees and that i have money for books but i am not ready because i just finished summer school last friday! i haven't gotten my grades yet either but i do know that in my INTB class i got a 100 on the final. but we had a paper in the class that they haven't finished grading yet so i can't figure out what my grade is but hopefully an A! i don't know about my other class. probably a B. i guess i will just have to wait. my brother and grandfather are coming to visit next week which is also the week i start school. at least it is the first week and i probably won't have much work to do. just buy books and all that fun stuff. and after a month i finally got my car back. no work done to it either! stupid state farmer people. i told my parents we should rethink renewing our car insurance with them. but my mom said that we have our house insu...

so summer school is almost over. finals are next week. so i have enjoyed my operations management class so i have decided to try the next class which is supply chain management. might end up double majoring. i am not sure yet. i got the 7th harry potter book. i pre-ordered it and got it delivered on July 21st! so i got half way through it and tada! there were pages missing. yes i was one of the hundreds of people that got the misprint books. not knowing that people were selling them on eBay for $500 i returned it to Barnes and nobles and got a new one! so i finished it in a couple of days. i enjoyed it. it was very different from all the other ones. kind of disappointed with the epilogue chapter. i am excited about how she might write a harry potter encyclopedia. i would buy it if she wrote one. fun car ramblings now! so at the begining of july we took my car to get the hail damage fixed. all is happy. so in the meantime i am driving my mom's car and my mom and dad are riding to wo...

so i have been saying that if i take 6 classes next semester i would like to live down at school. but whenever i bring it up, i get this look that i am so stupid. whenever i say anything people act like i am so stupid. sometimes i feel like i should never ever talk. why was i even born? i never thought i was that stupid but i can never seem to do anything right. what in the hell is wrong with me?

so i really haven't updated this thing in a while. sorry! i am not sure if people actually read this anyway. oh well. summer school has been really stressful and life has been so mean to me. it is a cruel world out there. hopefully i will graduate next may. if i pass everything. nothing is going right for me right now. hopefully next may everything will be right again. i won't feel... lost... pressure... confused... stressed...overwhelmed... lonely... disappointed in myself and everything else i do/can't do/wish i could do... it only seems that i can get away from it by reading (not stuff for school though!!! which i wish i wouldn't do) or being with my dogs or eating (which isn't helping either). i wish i could go away for a while. on a very long vacation where i don't have to do anything except have fun and not worry about everything.

so i now have about a month off before summer school starts. it has been good so far. i got an A in my business law and ethics class. a B+ in my entreprenuership class. i think i got a B in my cost accounting class. other than that i don't know my grades. that is ok. ainsley is home. i have been looking at Apple computers. does anyone have one? i really want one. i have heard they are so much better than pc. i have been to the apple store and looked at them. i have looked at them online. i think it might be the next computer i get. but i still like my toshiba laptop too.

so my friends took me out to a bar on saturday. it was pretty fun. i got kinda drunk but no throwing up or anything like that. but it was kinda funny when scooter was trying to teach me how to dance and i kept tripping over myself and totally not getting it. then we went to play pool and i only won the first game because scooter hit a couple of my balls in on accident. but he won the second game. then i sent him a text message saying that i liked him. but i am not sure if he likes me like that or that i just made a complete fool of myself. but i really do like him....grrr, i think i am the only 21 year old in america that has never been kissed or had a boyfriend. so that is the story of my first time at a bar.

so today i turned 21!! i can't really believe it!! i got a new bigger tv for my room that i got to pick out! and we got an extra long cable cord and strung it down the hall so now i have cable in my room!! :) that is my favorite present. maybe i will post a picture of it here later! the semester is almost over! i am so glad! i have 2 test this week and then a final next week and then i am done! then i get almost a month off before summer school starts! i am glad that i get some time off! for my entreprenuerism class we had to start a business and had to come up with a business plan like we were really going to start it. i am so proud of it! we got a 100 and so everyone in my group made a copy of it because it feels like the best thing we have ever done! i think i will take a picture of it and post up here too!

so i know i haven't posted anything in a while but i am back and will try to update more....just sometimes there isn't anything to say. i am going to change my major to MIS(management information systems) i really haven't taken any classes in it yet but i think i will like it... i hope! so even with changing my major i should still be able to graduate next may. if i was going to change to something outside of the business school i wouldn't be able to graduate next may. so i am sticking with business. my brother came home last weekend for easter and my dad's birthday. my birthday is in a couple of weeks i am going to be 21! i think i am going to go out with some friends but i am not sure where. classes will end in 3 weeks. i can't wait!

oh yea i am! this week i had 4 tests and a project due! i wish that i had these test before spring break. but i am almost done with them. i have one more test tomorrow and then i will be done! in 2 of my classes i just have the final (or last test) and that is all. in 2 of my other classes i have 2 more test and then i am done. in my business law and ethics class, i just have to do a group project and a paper that i have already started. in my entrepreneurism class i have to finish a group project. in 3 of my classes i have group projects. i hate group projects. i am ready for this semester to be over!! i am still deciding between working this summer or taking summer school. i will probably take summer school but i am not sure still...depends on the classes being offered and stuff. so i have lost 7.2 pounds over the past 2 months... kinda slow but i haven't really gained any back you know. like some weeks i will lose like .2 or something but other weeks i would lose 1.2 or somethin...

so this week i wanted to catch up on my school work...has that happened? no...i have done a couple of things for one of my group project but other than that i really haven't done much....oh and i did an outline the night before it was due! i am the worst procrastinator in the world. i wanted so much this semester to do so well and get all A's and stuff but i have gone back to terrible habits and not study as much as i should. it was one of my new years resolutions to study more and try to get all A's but i would always find some excuse to do something else. i am so terrible.

seems like things have been so busy!! still trying to get my car fixed....had a problem with the guy trying to lie and get out of having to pay for the damage to my car. it really mad me mad. but hopefully we will be able to take it in this week! it is suppose to rain a lot this week!! i like rain!! this week is spring break and i am using it to catch up on the studying that i haven't been doing!! i hate studying!!

this was pretty funny!! i actually would think this would be a good movie or i would at least go see it!

this is a video from Ivy League Champs and you can see my sister it this video!