i feel so stupid for thinking you cared. so stupid for giving you my heart. now i cry every night because i have given you everything and i got nothing. all i want is to be a part of your life. i don't want much. just to know that you really care. to talk to you. for you to be there for me. i feel so alone. i feel like everyone is disappearing on me and i can't trust anyone anymore. i cry every night because my heart is breaking. i feel stupid for thinking that someone actually cared. that someone might actually have loved me. now i am alone. and i hate it. do you even think about me anymore? you cross my mind all the time. i miss how we use to talk all the time and i felt like i could tell you anything. now i feel like everything about me is just wrong. that i am stupid and can't do anything right and i just feel so in the way of everyone. i am just so lost. i don't know how long i can do this anymore. i felt so complete with you. now i feel like i am drowning. and no one is there to save me.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Making a habit of disappearing

 Hello world! 🌎  Here I am, alive and doing well for the moment. I have a place to live and food and a car to drive. My movie collection has improved. But in about 10 days I am being evicted. Do I have money to go anywhere? No. A place to lay my head with family or friends? No. Have I done anything wrong to deserve this? No. Am I on drugs? No.   I will check back in a month and maybe things will look up?
Read more
so I recently had an interesting spam email come to my email. a guy saying he found me through some website. he continues to tell me that he is a soldier in afghanistan and that he wants to send me a box of cash. so i was like ok… i figured it was a scam but decided to waste his time and entertain myself and see where this went. he said he was sending it through the red cross. (didn't know they were there but who knows) he says the red cross lady will contact me about how to get this box. she emails me and says that i have to pay insurance on this box and that this company will call me. they call me at like 2 am. they end up telling me i have to pay $850 for the insurance on this box. so that is the scam part. so i tell them that hell no i don't have that kind of money and hang up. i email the original scammer and tell him hell no too i don't have $850. he then says get a loan. i am way too smart to get a loan for scammer.  i tell him i can't get one and he keeps pushin
Read more