June 25, 2007

why do i even try?

so i have been saying that if i take 6 classes next semester i would like to live down at school. but whenever i bring it up, i get this look that i am so stupid. whenever i say anything people act like i am so stupid. sometimes i feel like i should never ever talk. why was i even born? i never thought i was that stupid but i can never seem to do anything right. what in the hell is wrong with me?

June 18, 2007

life....

so i really haven't updated this thing in a while. sorry! i am not sure if people actually read this anyway. oh well. summer school has been really stressful and life has been so mean to me. it is a cruel world out there. hopefully i will graduate next may. if i pass everything. nothing is going right for me right now. hopefully next may everything will be right again. i won't feel... lost... pressure... confused... stressed...overwhelmed... lonely... disappointed in myself and everything else i do/can't do/wish i could do... it only seems that i can get away from it by reading (not stuff for school though!!! which i wish i wouldn't do) or being with my dogs or eating (which isn't helping either). i wish i could go away for a while. on a very long vacation where i don't have to do anything except have fun and not worry about everything.