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i am bidding on this signed orlando bloom picture on e-bay and only 9 minutes until it is mine!! i will post in 10 minutes when it is mine!! hehe!!!

so i am thinking about getting a private room. i think it might be too late to change rooms but if they have an empty one maybe they will let me move into there. so i ordered some books online last friday and the last time i looked at the tracking it was in memphis and that was at 730am so maybe it is on a plane here and hopefully it will be here by the end of the week. i think that is what is holding my sanity. i have talked to my parents and they give me the we will be very disappointed and mad at you if you withdraw. grrr....someone is pounding on the door to the room next door. grrrr.......i am glad i am not trying to sleep right now!! the only thing right now that is keeping my sanity is the prospects of future mail!!! there are people outside that are talking so loudly......that makes me mad if i was trying to study or sleep or whatever i would never get anything done!! i so want to get an apartment. get somewhat away from this close living. at least in apartments you live a litt...

i still want to go home but i am finding that it is impossible. but i am feeling a lot better today. this weekend i felt horrible. i spent most of my time in the bathroom if you know what i mean. i really don't have much to say. i am tired from being woken up so many times last night

i hate my room at the moment. it gets so cold and then it gets really hot and then cold again!! grr.... we need our own air conditioner/heater in our rooms. and i hate how you can hear the people in the rooms around you. have you noticed that all i say now is i hate i hate i hate? one thing that i like about my room is all my orlando bloom pictures that i have put up and the nice internet that i get here!! but it is a shoebox!! with 2 people living in it. i am starting to get embarrassed because i am usually around here and then amber startes talking to her boyfriend and i fell like i should leave but i have no where else to go and then they get mad at each other because amber has all these guy friends and her boyfriend is all jealous or something!! oh well!! and then she was going to bring a guy up here to watch a movie and i was ok with that except for if i wanted to go to sleep and they were still here then i wouldn't be that comfortable with him being here but in general i woul...

i want to go home!! anyone want to help because i don't exactly have a car to get me home.

well guess what!! i actually went to a football game last night. we won too. so guess what else? i am not feeling good at all. i think i might be coming down with a cold or something. my parents gave me the join a group talk and how to say hi to people talk. i do say hi to people they just ignore me!!

well it is parents weekend. i just went out to lunch with my family. i am suppose to be going to the hypnotis right now but i got a stomach ache and i told them to go on so they wouldn't miss it because of me so i am now waiting for them to get back. they are going to check into their hotel room then i am going to show them where my classes are then we are going to have dinner and go to the game. i am an idiot. why did i think i could come to college? i know i failed my psychology test! the main questions people have asked me today is where are you from and what are you going to major in? i probably wouldn't mind it here so much if i could just live in an apartment and had a car so i wouldn't have to eat cafeteria food and i could just make the food that won't give me a stomach ache!! and i won't have people making loud noises all around me and run up and down the hallways. i would probably have less distractions and i might be able to actually get some studying d...

i just ordered 3 books on the internet from barnes and nobles!! i hope they get here soon!! hopefully by early next week!! yeah!! i love to read books!!

ugh. it is raining. i hate walking in the rain so i am going to skip my last class. i have this fear of getting struck by lighting. i know that the chances of that happening is very low but still..... but i do like rain when you can just sit in your room and not have to go out. i am going to clean up my stuff because it is parents weekend and everyone is going to be coming in and out of my room and i don't want to embarrass amber by having a trashy side of the room and embarrassing her in front of her family. anyway i don't want to look like a pig in front of my own family anyway. so i started out and made my bed!! then i sit down here to type out my thoughts here and look at other people's blogs to see what a normal person acts like. JK!!! i finally got the stupid atlas that my geography teacher wanted us to get. she seemed to be in sorta a bad mood today. i don't really care. i am really glad that the weekend is here. i so wish i was home this weekend.

today has not been that great. we got back our essays in english today and i failed it!! i don't really understand how she got the grade i got on it. i asked her how she got it and she said she averaged the grade on the rough draft and the grade on the final draft together. but the rough draft is out of 50 and the one on final is i guess out of a 100 because i got higher that a 50 on it but i don't think something out of 50 should be averaged with something out of 100. it is like adding 1/4 with a 1/3 if you know what i mean. they have to be out of the same number of points right? so i should have gotten a passing grade if they are out of the same number of points. then i had a psychology test and the stuff that wasn't suppose to be on the test was on it!! so i probably failed that too!!! but the good thing about today is that i deposited the refund of the art history class!! so yeah!!! i got lots of money today!! the walk to my bank felt longer than i thought it would ...

i so love orlando bloom!!! i printed out some more pictures of him to put on my walls. he is so hot!!! i love his smile, eyes, hair, and accent!! i so wish i could meet him or even marry him!! but i would be lucky to even meet him!!! the closest i will ever be able to see him is in my dreams and on tv and in my thoughts!!! Orlando Bloom if you are reading this: comment or e-mail me!! today another one of my classes was canceled. they didn't say why but it is so wierd to have 2 classes canceled in one week. i am a little nervous because i have my first psychology test on thursday and the professor has not talked that much about psychology except for today. today he started talking about the brain. but all the other days he seems to center it all about physics and chemistry. oh well i am going to read the chapters in the book and hopefully that will help me at least pass!! i have a couple of test next week that i need to start studying for. i was craving for pizza tonight so i...

i never really say what i mean to say. i don't know if i am scared that someone will read it and get mad or what but i need to say some stuff. amber says hey girl or bye girl. i guess that annoys me a little bit because i have a name. she might say that to everyone but still. it annoys me. her boyfriend calls all the time. early in the morning and late at night. and in between. her friends always come in a go through her closet. so i will be sitting here doing something on my computer and in walks someone i don't know who has ambers key. they say i am a friend of ambers. they start going through her closet and stuff. on friday i come back and there are clothes everywhere!! amber wasn't there (she went to take a shower because she walked in a few minutes later and she had left the door unlocked) and her clothes were on my bed and on her bed and on the floor. amber never invites me to go anywhere with her and i don't want to invite myself because i sorta think that i...

well i am sitting here at my computer instead of in class because my class was canceled!! my professor is sick. but of course this is the class that i actually like to go to!!! all of the other classes are just ugh. i like sfa 101 too but if i had to pick a favorite, it would have to be Geography. i don't know why. i guess the teacher makes the difference. i got my debit card today. the bad thing is that i only have $70 in my bank account so i better save it until i get my allowance. but i have some cash too so i am not too poor. so i went home this weekend. my mom brought me back up here this morning. i had to get up at 5 am because my mom had to be in conroe by 10-11am. i pretty much rested and talked to my mom the whole time. tried not to think too much. i wish i could have stayed at home a little while longer. it is ok here. it is nice a cool today. but there isn't much to do here. you need a car to go to lufkin and do stuff there. lufkin is where all the shops and r...

i dropped my art history class. so now i have 13 hours instead of 16 hours. so now on MWF I don't have classes until 11am!! i have class at 11am, 1pm, and on just MW i have class at 3pm. on TR i have class at 8am and 11am. i hate getting up early to go to my 8am class but it is only 2 days a week. most weekdays i can sleep in!! i love to sleep. i sent some letters today. i love mail. i wish i got more mail! mom is coming to have lunch with me tomorrow. i hope i can go home this weekend too. it isn't what i expected here. a lot of people leave on the weekends. a girl on my floor has already left for the weekend!!! can you believe it? it is thursday and people are already leaving!! my roommate says that there are like 3 parties every night except for sundays because people i guess rest and study.

sigh..... i called my mom today and i asked if i could go home this weekend since she is already coming up here to have lunch with me on friday. and she said no!!! you would think she would want me to come home. no one is here on the weekend. even last weekend a lot of people left. and we had a football game!!! and it wasn't a holiday weekend or anything!!! and i can't stand the food here!! it gives me stomach aches all the time!! and i don't want to complain about my roommate but her boyfriend calls all the time!! he calls early in the morning and late at night and in between. i am glad she is trying to work with this long distance relationship (her boyfriend is still in high school) but it is so annoying!!! next year i am going to get a private room. that is another thing. here you have to been in the dorms until you have 60 credit hours and that is basicly 2 years. grrrr........

isn't he adorable?? 

this is murphy (andrew's dog) isn't he so cute!! 

the 2nd week into school is almost over. it is going ok. i am still homesick. i have had a lot of english writing and in all the other classes i just have a lot of reading. i think my favorite class right now is my geography class. i went to talk to my geography teacher before class today. she is really nice. she asked me a lot of questions about where i am from and stuff. she is the one from Belguim. she has a cool accent but you can still understand her. i went home last weekend for labor day weekend. i had the best food this last weekend than i have had since i went to school. i didn't have a stomach ache. i don't have a lot to say.

so my first week of school is almost over. it has been ok. my classes are pretty interesting. i dropped my PSC 141 class because it wasn't exactly what i expected so i signed up for PSC 142 because that is the class that i really wanted to take. so i signed up for it yesterday. so tomorrow will be the first day i go to that class so i don't know if i like it or not but hopefully i will!! but i like all the classes that i have been to. i have met so many new people i can't remember all their names but i can remember some of their names!! yeah!! dinner yesterday made me sick. you guys probably don't want me to get into that but if you want to know what happened just ask. i am so tired. i haven't been on a schedule in a long time so waking up at 7am every day for classes is very tiring. i will eventually get used to it. my longest walk is to my art history class. it is all the way on the other side of campus. but the rest of my classes are pretty close by. i had th...