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2012-01-30T13:52:00.000-06:00

i guess i should just accept that you don't care at all. that you don't want to be in my life at all. that you just said stuff to me. i am tired of empty words. i am tired of getting my hopes up and thinking that you will be there for me like i have been for you. when i have needed you, you weren't there. everyone has disappeared on me and maybe it is time for me to just disappear. to just go and see who cares enough to try and find me. i guess it is time to see who really cares. to see who is going to step up and show me. i have showed you now it is my turn. that probably sounds selfish but i am tired of always giving and giving and now that i got nothing left, what else am i suppose to do? i got nothing left to give. just me. i feel so worthless because i got nothing. i work my ass off trying to save up my money again and to get through school and everything else that everyone throws at me but i feel like i am getting no where and no one here to push me up when i have fallen so far. i have hit rock bottom and no one cares. i cry myself to sleep and i hate it.

2012-01-02T12:59:00.000-06:00

i guess since i got nothing left give you, there is nothing left for you to take from me, you just drop me. i guess that is all you ever wanted from me is money and for me to do things for you. i guess i never really meant anything at all to you. when you meant the world to me. it breaks my heart to see you on facebook and not even respond to me. all i ever wanted was your friendship. to have a spot in your life and i can't even have that. i never expected much. just to talk or text or something once a week or something. but we are going on 2 months now of you not talking to me. you didn't even acknowledge my christmas present or cards or anything. i feel like i have given you everything i have and i get nothing in return. i don't want anything in return. i just want your friendship! something that is free! it may cost nothing but it means everything to me. you have no idea how something so small can mean so much to me. i guess for giving you my all, i just get my heart thrown back at me.

2012-01-01T16:26:00.002-06:00

I am sorry I am not good enough for you. Not pretty enough. I have always been me and I don't know what made you change your mind. My heart breaks every day that you don't talk to me. I miss you and I have no idea how to tell you how much you mean to me or even if you will listen.

2012-01-01T13:05:00.001-06:00

Happy new year.... I guess. This morning I have been thinking how my life has changed in the past year. It just seems like the bad overshadows the good. I feel like I have lost you. I really miss our friendship. You made me feel so happy. And now I don't even know if you think about me at all. Every day I miss you, I miss how much we use to talk and how good and happy you made me feel. Now I feel like everything has gone wrong. Things are so stressful and it feels 10x worse because you aren't there. To talk to or give me a hug or just anything. I feel so lost and alone. It feels like everyone has disappeared.

2011-12-29T11:47:00.000-06:00

i guess it really says how you feel about me when you totally ignore what i sent you for christmas, totally ignore a christmas card, and don't even bother to send me a stupid text saying merry christmas. i guess i was stupid to think you really cared about me and wanted to be my friend. what gets me is that even through all this, i realize i still love you. and that just makes it hurt worse. that i would do anything in the world for you but you don't give a dam about me. and i hate that i can't do anything about it. everything i had done for you doesn't seem to make a difference. it feels like the past year has meant nothing to you. maybe someday you will tell me where i stand with you because i don't know anymore.

2011-12-22T19:58:00.000-06:00

i feel so stupid for thinking you cared. so stupid for giving you my heart. now i cry every night because i have given you everything and i got nothing. all i want is to be a part of your life. i don't want much. just to know that you really care. to talk to you. for you to be there for me. i feel so alone. i feel like everyone is disappearing on me and i can't trust anyone anymore. i cry every night because my heart is breaking. i feel stupid for thinking that someone actually cared. that someone might actually have loved me. now i am alone. and i hate it. do you even think about me anymore? you cross my mind all the time. i miss how we use to talk all the time and i felt like i could tell you anything. now i feel like everything about me is just wrong. that i am stupid and can't do anything right and i just feel so in the way of everyone. i am just so lost. i don't know how long i can do this anymore. i felt so complete with you. now i feel like i am drowning. and no one is there to save me.

2011-10-30T04:33:00.001-05:00

What is it about me that makes you not want to talk to me? What did I do wrong? I feel like I have done something so wrong to make you disappear. You don't know that I am hurting inside. I guess it is too much to ask to be remembered. I am sorry for whatever I did. Sorry for being me. Sorry I am not as pretty as she is. Sorry for keeping my word. Being loyal. I am keeping my promises will you?

2011-09-28T20:07:00.001-05:00

i sometimes wonder if you ever notice that i don't answer your question about what i am up to. that i just concentrate on you. i wonder if you ever care to really find out. or do you think i don't do anything at all? sometimes i wonder if you ever think about asking again. i never know where to start. do you want to know about work? school? the stress? how i wonder if i can make it through it all? that i wonder if i am good enough for it? good enough for anyone? am i worth it? so many things run through my head i have no idea where to start. in the end it is easier to just concentrate on you. but inside i am dying. from the pressure. the stress. everything. wondering where i stand with you. you use to text me just to say good morning or good night. you use to say that you missed me and thought about me. you don't say that anymore. maybe you still do. maybe you don't. i have no idea and i don't want to lose you. i told you a year ago almost exactly that i loved you. you said it too. but you haven't said it in so long. maybe you just don't. but maybe you do. i hope you do but sometimes i wish i didn't. because then i start to hurt because i don't want to get my hope up. and it just leads to a big cicle of wondering then why you don't talk to me. i don't know. maybe i am just being stupid. or crazy. or both. i am sure whoever is reading this probably thinks i am crazy. i am just confused. left wondering what is going on. i thought things would be so different. i think you did too.

2011-09-21T19:49:00.000-05:00

am i even worth it to you anymore? is it just easier to ignore me? why not just tell me you don't even want to be my friend anymore? it would hurt less to hear that than to keep thinking i mean anything to you. maybe it is just a lesson to me to not trust anyone anymore. i have learned an expensive lesson. don't give my heart to anyone. but i have and i can't really take it back. you have it and you probably always will. every guy i think about makes me think of you. it has almost been a month since you last talked to me. i am tired of trying to talk with no response. i don't like being the first one to talk anymore but i feel like you won't talk first. i guess i was stupid to expect that we would stay in contact. remember promising me that i wouldn't be cut off? it feels like i am cut off. i don't expect to talk all the time but what is wrong with wanting to talk or text once a week? i have never wanted anything in return except to stay in contact but you block me on facebook, you don't call me or even text. you never write back. maybe i am trying too hard. maybe i am expecting too much but to just stay in contact somehow doesn't seem like much to ask for. especially for all that i have done. maybe i am just being played. i hate questioning where i stand with people. it has become one of the worst feelings in the world. i would ask what i could change to make it so you would want to talk to me but then i would wonder would i still be me? i don't even know if you think about me at all. do i cross your mind like you do mine? i wonder what i did to make it so that you don't want to talk to me or at least feel that way. i never thought it would be this way. i thought we would see each other more. be able to talk more. just more everything but it is the opposite of what i thought it would be like. i am just more confused than ever. i hate that i feel like i have no one to talk to and that i have to put all this out here because i can't hold it inside any longer. i don't think you will see this either but if you do, call me or text me. tell me where i stand. you told me once that you needed me. is that still true? i need you. even if not, you got a spot still in my heart that no one will ever have.

2011-09-04T18:23:00.000-05:00

i wish i could go back to the way things were. where we were so close. that i knew where i stood with you. now i need you the most, you are gone. you only talk to me when you need something from me. i don't mind helping you out. i told you i would always be there for you and i still will. no matter how much i am ignored or hurt. i guess i am like a dog. loyal and will still love the owner no matter how many times they hit them. my mind tells me to let you go and just move on but my heart says no. i have given you stuff some real special stuff that i can never get back and i don't even know if you realize how special that is. maybe i am just not worth it. you use to make me feel so special. i miss what we had. i felt like we were so close. now i am lucky if you talk to me or even think of me when i think of you every day. i have so much i want to say but i hide it inside. i have become so quiet. it hurts. i am just so confused these days and i have no idea if the direction i am taking is right or if i am just blindly making my way through life. i have a feeling that i am not worth much to anyone anymore. sometimes i wonder if i just disappear would anyone notice? maybe i am just a fool. and i am just tired. physically and emotionally. i wish i could talk to you about this but i can't. maybe it is my pride. but i can't talk to anyone else because there is just too much. and too much of it i can't talk about with anyone but you.

2011-07-20T21:30:00.000-05:00

is it wrong to want to be needed or wanted? to know that you are valued by your friends? to get a simple text saying hi how are you? every once in a while? to know that you are thought of? even if you can't really talk but just have a second to let someone know that you care about them? i have found that i crave these small things that may be annoying to other people but they mean so much to me.

2011-06-20T15:42:00.001-05:00

This year has not been all that great. Some good things have happened and some not that great things. I have gotten into graduate school which is good. But it just seems to have brought more battles to conquer than I thought and more stress that really isn't related to what you would think it would be from. It was hard enough to just get financial aid. At first I wasn't sure if I would need it because I had enough to cover it but it just seems like money is flying out of my pocket so fast i am glad I got it because I do really need it now. It scares me though having to use it because I have no idea when anyone is actually going to want to hire me. It is just stressing me out. I hate spending this much money. I haven't ever really been a big spender (which is why I drive a 10 year old car and have a 6 year old laptop that are just both hanging in there) and I was always proud of how much I had saved and stuff. Registration was a pain. I signed up for 2 classes and one of them totally got messed up. I wasn't on the teacher's class list or on the webct part. The only place that showed I was in the class was in my student records and then it turned out there were prerequisites for the class so I have no idea how I was able to sign up for the class anyway. So they dropped me. My parents decided to send me to help my sister move so now I am way behind on school work because I haven't had Internet access for a couple days and haven't had time to read the textbook and I had just been so tired from packing and moving. I have gotten about 6 hours of sleep the past 3 or 4 days. I have no clue how I am going to catch up. Then I just seem to not be able to live up to everyone's expectations. I am never good enough. I feel so unwanted. I feel like I am just in the way of everyone. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. I have no idea who I can even talk to anymore because it seems like everyone has their own stuff to deal with and I am just in their way bothering them or something. Which is why I guess I am writing all this on a blog. Cause I need to talk this out somewhere. I don't think anyone reads this anyway.

2010-09-01T18:21:00.000-05:00

do you guys ever google yourself to see where you show up on the internet? i do ever so often. most of my results are from facebook. most of it is junk results like the sites that tell you you can get people's information for free....but the big secret is you can search for the person for free but to get all the details you have to pay for it. has anyone looked at spokeo.com? it is so funny! it has a lot of information on you gathered from its search through the internet. i looked myself up. it says i am 27 (a few years off...) it says i am in a relationship (ha! i wish!) and that i have kids (which is even funnier because i have never had sex....wonder where the kids came from?) so they are a little off....

2010-08-28T11:36:00.000-05:00

i have learned to never get my hopes up, never expect anything from anyone, and to never fall in love because that just leads to a broken heart... never again will i make these mistakes...

2010-07-25T17:03:00.000-05:00

i have been really cleaning out my stuff lately. i have gone through a lot of stuff and thrown it away. i haven't been doing much lately other than that. i have been writting lots of letters to my penpals. it feels like i cant get ahead on that one. i write a lot and then i check my mail there are more! i think i have too many penpals but i don't want to say no either. some i think will fall off naturally so i am sure it will work out.

2010-07-02T22:39:00.000-05:00

i feel so stupid. i did terrible on the GRE. i don't think i will get into graduate school. my scores and lack of people i can ask for letters of recommendations are my doom. i can't think of anyone that would be able to give me a good letter of recommendations. yea i don't think any of my teachers would remember me. i wasn't that great in any of my classes and the ones i did do will in were like 5 years ago. who would give a recommendation to a person that they saw more than 5 years ago? yea right. no work recommendations either. i am soooo hopeless. also the fact that i don't even know what i want to do in graduate school. i am only thinking of graduate school because i can't get a job. wow i am like batting a 0 of 1000 or whatever the saying is. i am a terrible student/friend/worker/daughter/sister/human being.

2010-06-10T18:49:00.000-05:00

so i am all signed up to take the GRE in 12 days. so i found out today that the program i want to do isn't accreditted. i am soooo frustrated now. i don't even know what to do now. a lot of other places that i wan to apply either i don't think i can get in or they require letters of recommendations and i don't even know who i should ask to do those for me. i don't work for anyone and i don't think any of my old teachers remember me. i am so confused and lost about what i should do.

2010-05-24T19:06:00.001-05:00

so last post i told you guys how i listed some never worn bras that i had on ebay. well someone has actually bid on them and like 5 people are watching the item! that is so funny. it will be one of the listing that i will probably make a lot of money on! i just think it is so funny! :)

2010-05-23T18:24:00.000-05:00

do you think it is weird to list bras on ebay? i have 3 that i never wore and they still have the tags and everything. they just sat around for like 2 years. anyway they are not the right size anymore so i am not planing to wear them. so i thought why not? oh well it seems like out of the stuff i list, it is the weird things that i don't think will sell, they sell right away. now that ebay is finally having free auction listings, i don't mind putting some stuff up there just to see how it goes.
next weekend is going to be crazy and weird. everyone is coming home for the holiday. i am never sure what everyone is going to say to me. most of the time it is an insult.

2010-05-21T11:35:00.000-05:00

so i think i am going to finally take the gre and go to graduate school. i think i will go to sam houston and get a masters of library science. i don't know if i will get in. i think i have until august 1st to apply but i am going to try to get it all together by the end of june.
going to my sisters college graduation was cool. we also got her all packed up and ready to move to NYC next month. we walked everywhere! i was so tired by the end of the trip. you would think that with as much walking as we did, i would have lost weight but we ate a ton. we went out to every meal. i am scared to weigh myself. i avoid scales like the plague.
i upgraded some of things in my computer. i got a bigger harddrive. i got a 500gb harddrive. i wanted bigger but for laptops there isn't as much of a choice as there is for desktops. i also got more ram. all that needs to be done is a new fan because i think mine doesn't work right because my computer gets really hot when i do lots of things on it at one time and it gets kinda loud too and sometimes it just freezes. but i don't think it can be fixed. i can live with it. i just have to turn it off a lot and not let it run forever.

2010-03-29T17:09:00.000-05:00

i got my new drivers license today. the new design looks weird. i like the old design better. for my new picture they had me take off my glasses which i wear all the time. i thought it was kinda weird because i were them all the time and anyone that will need to look at the license probably should see a picture of how i usually look you know? but i think they told me to take it off maybe because of the flash? oh well i can't change it now. i got the next book in the elsie dinsmore a life of faith series. i have been checking them out from the library and there are 8 books. i am on the 7th book and i had to be on a waiting list for it. i like the series though and i don't mind waiting. i applied to work at krogers and i had a drug test done today and they will be doing a background check on me too. it will probably be like my credit report and have nothing on there. anyway i never thought i would end up working at krogers after college. but i think they were going to put me at the deli counter.....oh well i hope to get promoted fast or find another job. my life is sooooo not how i thought it would be.

2010-03-04T17:22:00.000-06:00

i feel like i need to update this but i really don't have anything to say. nothing new is really going on. my sister is coming home tomorrow and her birthday is next week. i got her a present today and a funny card. it is one of those hoops and yo cards with sound. they are so funny. :) anyway i am alive.

2010-02-11T18:16:00.001-06:00

so i am going to have my wisdom teeth taken out on monday. i am going to have all 4 taken out at the same time. i hope it doesn't hurt too much. i will probably get to eat lots of ice cream and yummy stuff like that! :)
i updated the look to my guestbook. mainly i just changed the colors. i am glad that some of you actually have signed it! i like hearing back from you readers that actually read my blog. :)

2010-02-10T21:16:00.000-06:00

not much is going on. i have been told i am too boring. i guess i don't care because i am not going to do a whole bunch of stuff that i don't want to do just be not boring. i would do more of some stuff if i was actually good at them but since i have a limited choice of what i am good at, i guess that makes my life boring.
anyway i am going to get at least one of my wisdom teeth out. tomorrow i am going to i guess a specialist to see if i am going to go ahead and just have them all out or just the one. my dentist said that i might as well have them all out at the same time since i am young and can handle it better than having more problems when i am older. i kinda agree. might as well get the pain over with. don't know when i will actually get them out. probably soon. hopefully by next week.

2010-02-03T18:19:00.000-06:00

so valentines day is coming up soon. i don't think i will get anything this year as usual. last year i actually bought stuff for myself. that was a new low. i don't think i will buy myself anything this year unless i suddenly get a lot of money and then i would buy myself an imac. but i haven't really gotten anything for valentines day since the days of when your friends would give you a card or something. remember the days when you would buy those little cards to hand out to your whole class? i don't think i have ever had a real valentine. it would be cool to finally have a boyfriend so i could actually celebrate this holiday but i am not going to go out and get a boyfriend just for that. anyway i don't think anyone is ever going to be interested in me. most people just can't get beyond the fat. and for me it is all in 2 areas that don't seem to want to go away. no matter what i do. my clothes sizes are at least 2 sizes bigger just because of these 2 areas. it makes me sooo mad. sorry to go on about that. i just hate those 2 areas sooo much. i would consider plastic surgery but i know the doctors will just say keep dieting and i can't really afford it anyway without going completely broke. i am saving my money for when i really might need it. like suddenly getting kicked out or needing to move to a different city which would be cool but i don't know if i would want to move without knowing that i would have a job there first.

2010-01-13T16:13:00.000-06:00

i finally got paid for all of my lovely work while i was shortly employed! i got a lot more than i thought i would. either they took pity on me or f*** you atrs you should not have fired me because if i did that great during 2 1/2 weeks maybe you should have kept me around. but it is their lose and my gain and i can find a better job that i actually like.
sorry i just needed to get that out. i thought they would be wimps and not send me anything i earned. but it isn't exactly like winnning the lottery but it will be good for my bank account.
how is everyone's new year so far? i ordered a guitar off ebay and i got it last week. it was very cheap and i got what i paid for. but hopefully i can learn off of it.

2009-12-27T14:03:00.000-06:00

so this is our christmas tree. it is kinda fuzzy but it shows the lights the best out of all the pictures i tried to take. i got a new camera for christmas. that is probably the best thing i got this year but that is ok because i don't really need anything. anyway the things i really want are too big to be christmas presents. i got a couple of gift cards. i got harry potter and the half blood prince and the new backstreet boys cd. i hope everyone had a good christmas!

Mac Pro

2009-12-17T22:32:00.000-06:00

so every once in a while i will go on the apple website and build an imac or macbook or something and see how much it would cost and what they have added and stuff. i had never looked at their mac pro which is their big desktop computer. so i decided to look at it and see what it would be like to build a customized one. it has 4 hard drive bays and you can have up to a 2 TB hard drive in each one. that means 8 TB total!! that would last you a long time! i was so amazed. it could also have a 32 GB memory card! to have the best of this computer would make it over $10,000!!!! wow i sound like a geek but wow! i wish i had the money to buy something like that but that is like buying a car! i think i will just get the regular imac. :) now the ipod nanos have cameras in them! i am a little jealous but i just bought a new ipod classic this summer so i am not ready to trade it in right now. but i am ready to trade in my computer. i have had it with the one i have. it does so many weird things and never does exactly what i want it to do. does anyone else go and build their favorite computers? i do the same thing with my favorite cars.

2009-12-15T17:20:00.000-06:00

wow. today i was fired. i think that is the shortest time someone has worked anywhere. i think i lasted 3 weeks. unless you count the girl that trained with me that never showed up after that day. maybe she had the right idea. oh well more time spend with my family because i think i was suppose to work next week. now instant vacation again! and on again the job search/soul search/ where is my future search. at least i like the weather. hopefully i have a good christmas. i don't deserve anything at all but hopefully i will be surprised.

2009-11-20T18:12:00.001-06:00

so my parents are coming home tomorrow from their vacation for their anniversary. i am glad they are coming home because it has been kinda lonely here with just me and the dog. but at least i get to do whatever i want to do without anyone critizing me or being disappointed or anything. i have already gotten my christmas cards all ready to go! a little early but i had the time. i sent out my thanksgiving cards at the begining of the week. if anyone else wants a card from me, please tell me by monday. monday is the last day i can send out thanksgiving cards so that it gets to you before thanksgiving. also if you want a christmas card tell me!
i actually sold 2 things on e-bay this week! i am happy because it has been a while since i have sold anything and i am glad to finally get rid of some more things. i don't make much though. just enough to spend on other things on ebay. i generally buy things that i can't get here like Dear Canada books and My Story books. they are kinda like the dear america series except dear canada is for canada and my story is for the uk. there is also a series called my story for australia but they are pretty expensive because of the shipping from australia. so i don't have any of those yet but i have a lot of the dear canada i think about half and a few of the my story for the uk.
this week i also got a box full of yummy chocolate and brownies from my very best friend! i was soooo surprised! i love surprises. :) thank you!!
last week i had a job interview. i thought that it had gone well and the person that interviewed me seemed kinda impressed with what i had told him and all and i left with a good feeling. i had even sent them a thank you note (handwritten!) and i haven't heard back from them yet. how long would it take for them to get back with me? he said he had interview through tuesday and now it is friday. do you think he would have called by now if i was going to get a second interview? i guess i am getting nervous and i am having a feeling that i if i don't hear soon i probably won't get this one either. this is so frustrating. this was a job that i actually think i would like too. i guess i should seriously start thinking about going back to school even though i am not sure what i want to do anymore. a lot of the things i am interested in i have no talent in. it is sooo unfair. i sound like a brat.......i am so ashamed of myself and so disappointed. how can someone feel so many different feelings?

2009-11-15T16:18:00.000-06:00

so i am not sure i have ever told anyone this and i feel like talking about it to someone but i don't know who so i guess that is kinda why i have a blog is to admit things and talk about things. i have always wanted to be a singer but i never thought i was that great so i guess that is why i never joined choir and only sing when no one is around. i also want to learn how to play the guitar. but i am saving money for a nice one. i am not sure why i am admiting this. maybe because i am not sure anyone actually reads this. maybe there is someone out there that can talk to me about it or whatever. i don't know. i feel stupid for writting this. but also good. i am so all over the place right? no wonder i haven't accomplish anything by now

Friday the 13th

2009-11-13T14:29:00.000-06:00

so today is suppose to be unlucky. but for me it has been lucky. i first got $5 from a scratch off and then i had a very good interview that i think will hopefully turn into a job. this was the best interview i have ever had. maybe i could win the lottery and it would be a perfect day. usually i am unlucky so maybe on a day that is suppose to be unlucky i will be the opposite and be lucky. just a wish! i probably won't win the lottery. but i sure wish i could.

2009-11-11T18:22:00.001-06:00

so i was looking at the post where i put up my new years resolutions. some of them have gone well and some haven't. here is the post with my resolutions. tell me your opinion on how you think i did on them.

my first resolution was to get a job or get into graduate school. well i have applied for all kinds of jobs and had a few interviews but no jobs. and i have been looking into graduate school but i have no idea what i want to do so i have done nothing towards that
lose weight. that will still be on my resolution list next year. i lost 10 pounds so far this year but i need to lose a lot more but it is a start. at least i didn't gain weight like i did last year.
Yeah! i actually completed a resolution. i finished scanning pictures! but last weekend we found some more pictures that really old. my mom is worried that they will tear if we try to take them out of the photo albums so i don't know if i will get to scan them or not. anyway some of them are duplicates of some i have already scanned so it isn't too big of a deal. but i scanned like 3000 pictures this year so as far as i am concerned this resolution is finished!
it has not moved since i made the resolution. i haven't been able to find a lot of our home videos and my computer still freezes up when i try to edit and put them onto dvds so i think this will have to be on my resolution list for next year too.
well i did get a wii and i am walking more so this resolution is still going ok but i still should go to the gym more. and i would like to get more of the wii games that help you be more active.
i did travel once this year! i went to new york this summer for my cousin's graduation party and we went to new york city too so it was a lot of fun. i got to see the statue of liberty and i got to go on my first taxi ride and train ride and we went to central park and all kinds of stuff. it was fun. but i still want to go to the UK and take a big road trip and visit every single state. so i am part way there on this resolution.

oh! and i have my first follower! hi!! i didn't think anyone would follow me when i put that on there but i am glad i did! :)

2009-11-11T15:36:00.000-06:00

next week i am going to be sending out thanksgiving cards. if you want to get a card from me, please comment with your address by the end of next week. i like sending out cards. i love thanksgiving and christmas. we have been going through our house and doing a massive cleanout/organization. we went through our closet that has all the sheets and blankets and stuff. that closet has been collecting all kinds of things for the past 20 years ever since we moved into the house. we got rid of half the things in there. we had all kinds of mismatch sheets and things with stains and all so those we got rid of and the sheets we won't use ever again. so that is probably the only area that we have had total success in but we are slowly working on the rest of the house. for me i just wish i had more bookcases to put my books up in. every once in a while i go through my books and take some to half price books and some i try to sell online. selling online hasn't gone very well recently. august and september were great selling months for me but october and november haven't gone too well. plenty of people seem to be interested but no one buys.

2009-11-08T19:08:00.001-06:00

i guess my blog must be pretty boring because not many people visit or comment or anything. i guess i shouldn't complain about commenting because i don't comment very much myself. but since there is really only a few blogs out there that i read, i am not sure if i would comment a lot anyway. anyway i don't want to appear stalkerish either. so what can i do to make this blog more exciting? if you guys comment with questions, i could answer them or suggestions for topics that i could blog about or something that you would like to see in a blog. would anyone be interested in seeing reviews about books i read? since i read a lot that is something i could really do a lot of.

2009-11-05T17:14:00.000-06:00

i am never sure if anyone actually reads this blog. but i guess people do because my visit counter says that i have had over 11,000 visits to my blog. i guess no one comments. i totally understand because i only occasionally comment on people's blogs but there are some blogs i look at every day to see if they have been updated. if your blog isn't on my links colum to the right i probably don't read your blog because i don't know it. sorry. today i went to barnes and nobles to get my fix on gossip girl, the clique, private, and the it girls series. yea! no wonder i have too many books in my room and am frequently told that my room is a fire hazard. i guess it is because i know i have at least 1000 books in my room. someday when i get my own house, i am going to have a room just for all my books. i guess like a mini library. which i probably would combine with my office if i need one. i don't know about the office part since i don't have a job yet but i might need one. today i also went to check out the youth building at church because last time i was there they were building classrooms in the old church. it looked neat. they had also put up the art work i helped put together. it was neat to see it hanging up on the wall.

2009-11-04T10:14:00.000-06:00

so amazon is having 10 weeks of sweepstakes for its 10 year anniversary. last weeks prize was 10 kindles plus accessories. i am sooooo jealous of the person that one that week. the week before that was to go see the jonas brothers in concert in london which would have been so awesome to win too. i never win anything. so have you guys been watching what has been going on with lindsay lohan? every day recently i have seen new things on her. between her being in court late and out of it to her weird father saying she needs help so much but she won't listen to anyone. i wish i could go and straighten her out. i loved her when she was young and she has soooo much talent. she is just wasting away on alcohol and drugs. they say she will be the next health ledger. she has too much talent to die young. if anyone knows her and you are reading this, tell her allison says that i want to support her and help her and be a true friend unlike most of the celebrities out there that probably just make things worse instead of better.

2009-11-03T09:18:00.000-06:00

so what do you guys think of the new look? did anyone notice the new look? so it is finally november! november and december are my favorite months. i like the cooler weather and they have my favorite holidays! i love thanksgiving and christmas! all the food, music, parades, and family time! does anyone want to be on my card list? i will send you a card if you want. if you want to send me a card, my address is already on a previous post i think in june or july. i still haven't gotten a job yet. :( i am thinking about going back to school and i have thought about a couple of different degrees that i am interested and i am looking into where i can get them and what it is like in those programs. i am not sure if i can get things in gear before classes start in january but maybe i can get things moving before next summer. i wish i had really paid attention to what i wanted to do during high school. i think i would have done things totally different. there are so many things i could have done differently. i am sooo lame. today is election day. i am going to go vote later after the morning rush.

2009-10-22T23:00:00.002-05:00

i know i don't post much here anymore. not much is going on. i have been reading a lot this year. i can tell you what books i have been reading if you want to know. i have been selling a lot (a lot in my opinion. may not actually be a lot in other people's opinion) on ebay and amazon. so i spend lots of time cleaning out my room and i find things that i think might sell well on ebay. it is kinda interesting that the items i think will sell right away don't and the ones that i think won't sell but want to try sell in the first week. kinda weird. like i sold a vest i wore only once and it was gone in a week and i sold a flannel nightgown that i never wore and it was gone in a week too. i never thought they would sell but i didn't want them anymore so i thought i would try and they are gone! i put 2 bath brushes on an ebay listing and they were bid on in the first day! i was soooo surprised. and more people are interested in it so it will be interesting to see what the final sale price will be. so i have yahoo messanger just in case someone might want to IM me and told you guys about getting a po box and trying to get penpals right? anyway i signed up on this penpal website to try to get penpals from all over the world. i got some cool ones like someone from poland and australia. i got a couple of cool ones from here in the usa plus one from here that i think is a little weird but she is ok. but then there are all the prisoners that write to me. from what i have found out i think the penpal website has sold my name and po box address to a agency that sells lists of peoples names and address to prisoners. some of them seem ok and others are weird. i am not sure i should write them......what do you guys think? and then there are the weird people from africa that e-mail me (they put our e-mail addresses on the penpal website too even thought i don't want e-mail penpals) that say they love me and want to marry me! it is soooooooooooooooooooo creepy. no matter what i tell them they keep saying i love you marry me! and some guy from africa says please send me money and of course i tell him no especially since i am as just as poor as he is because i still have no job! and if i don't e-mail them back they IM me and if i don't respond to one they go back to the e-mails. very annoying. and they all want pictures which i don't give out because i know they are all crazy and i think they would all hunt me down and do something horrible to me so i don't give it out. anyway i hate how i look so i don't have any pictures of me anyway so it all works out. and all the people that instant message me also want my phone number so they can call when they get on and i am like heck no! it would make it so that i got people calling me in the middle of the night and crazy stalking calls if i don't respond and all that. so there has been good and bad things from the penpal search.

2009-09-08T13:22:00.003-05:00

i know i haven't been here in a long time. i am not sure anyone really reads this anymore. so i guess sometimes i don't feel like posting if no one is going to read it. this summer has been weird. some things have happened and weird feelings have been around and i don't know how people would take it and i sometimes aren't comfortable talking about it. but then i do want to talk about it and i don't know who to talk about it with. i never am the person that people come talk to their problems with and so i guess i am not sure i can get my feelings out there either. so i guess i have been just keeping things to myself and things happen that i don't really want to happen and i wish i could just tell people things and not made to feel stupid when i say them.

ebay

2009-06-06T14:48:00.003-05:00

so last week i had someone bid on an item that i had on ebay and win it. so i sent several invoices and tried to communicate with the bidder. so after a week, i opened an upaid item case with ebay. the bidder all of a sudden said why am i getting this? i said because you won an item and haven't paid for it yet. they said they didn't want it and didn't think that they had bid on it. well guess what you did and if you didn't want it why did you bid on it in the first place? and i asked why they didn't say anything when they got the first invoice? they gave some lame excuse. thanks for wasting my time. i hate people that waste my time on ebay. i have had a lot of scammers bid on my items and i haven't been selling that long on ebay. oh well. selling on ebay gives me money. not a lot but some so i can bid on stuff too. i still don't know what to do with my old ipod. any ideas?
does anyone actually read this anymore? just wondering.

ebay

2009-06-04T18:54:00.003-05:00

i am so surprised at some of the stuff that people will buy on ebay. i listed a whole bunch of magazines that i didn't want anymore on there and about half of them were bid on! i was surprised anyone was interested!
so like 2 weeks ago i got a new 120gb ipod. so i listed my old ipod on ebay. well the bidding got up to $100 and then i go and drop the ipod while i was getting it ready to ship and the stupid screen cracked! out of all the times that i dropped the thing it had to choose that time to actually break! it made me soooooo mad. so then i had to go tell the buyer that it had a cracked screen but it still worked and that he didn't have to pay for it if he didn't want to. now i have no idea what to do with the thing. i guess i can relist it with a cracked screen but i don't know if anyone would want to actually buy it now. i think the world hates me.
i got my own post office box today. i figured that i need to have it so that i won't be giving out my home address to all these people that i sell items too. mostly for a privacy. now i am looking for people to actually write to me there. anyone looking for a penpal? or you can just send me card there or whatever. i would be happy with anything! just comment with your email if you want to know the address.

my birthday..

2009-04-25T16:47:00.002-05:00

so yesterday was my birthday. so i am now 23. nothing fun about it really. i did almost nothing at all. i read a book. we went to outback and i had 2 strawberry daquires. i got a couple of cards and some books (thanks robin! :) ) anyway that pretty much sums up my day. not a bad day but i always think that maybe something surprising will happen. for some reason i have always wanted a surprise party. i don't know why.
so i have to figure out what i want to do with my life. i have no idea what i want to do. like if i went back to school what do i want to do there? or what kind of job do i want to do? uugghhh i have no idea what i want to do with my life. this is so frustrating. most people know what they want to do by the time they are 23.

23rd birthday

2009-04-14T17:29:00.002-05:00

so next week is my birthday. since my birthday is on a friday i thought it would be cool to have a party actually on my birthday. i was thinking about a cookout or pizza party instead of going to a bar. i find bars to be loud and all. i am just not sure how to plan a good party that people would want to come to.

i need to get it together

2009-04-08T21:27:00.003-05:00

i really probably should take the gmat or gre and get it over with. i am not even sure i want to go to graduate school but i should take the tests while i still remember stuff and the scores last for 5 years so i can use them if i change my mind. i don't even know what i want to go to graduate school for.
i am still trying to get a job. i have had only 1 job interview and it turned out to be a waste of time because they just filled it internally. they should have thought of that first before they wasted anyone's time interviewing people.
sales are picking up a little bit on my ebay and amazon stores. someone finally paid for an item they won a week and half ago. i was about to put an upaid dispute case on them. and a couple of days ago someone bought some accounting thing i had for my accounting class. someone has also finally bid on this nice watch i had listed on ebay. i have had it on there for like 3 weeks.
i so totally wish i could win the lottery. then there wouldn't be this pressure to get a great job. i would probably work at barnes and nobles or half price books or someplace that i would really enjoy working at. i wouldn't worry about finding a job that makes a lot of money because i would already have the money so if i was going to apply for a job, you would know i wanted to do it and not just have it as a job to make money.
this blog is almost 5 years old! i never thought that i would keep it so long! i have definitly gone through lots on here. sometimes i read old entries.

the bad news called life

2009-04-05T11:27:00.002-05:00

so i found out that after the interviews and all the time i wasted, they decided to fill the job internally. thanks a lot. it was a job that i could actually see myself in and was totally excited about and they just tear it down. why waste my time and get my hopes up?
the worst thing i have ever done and i didn't mean to do it. so my family has a cat that lives outside. she was getting close to 20 years old. she has always been able to dodge cars and make close calls and all that stuff. so i think she had finally gone deaf. i was leaving to go to the gym and she was right behind the car and she will usually move out of the way but this time she didn't and i didn't know she was there and i ran over her...i felt the bump and i got out to see what it was and it was our cat! i couldn't believe i did that! i feel so sooosososososososososo horrible. i am now the worst person i know and probably the worst person you now know. but i really didn't mean to do it. i can't think anymore or i will start crying.
i think people out there know what i have done because no one is buying from me anymore. i really liked having to go to the post office so often. but i haven't been in a while. i guess i deserve it.

interview

2009-03-24T19:35:00.002-05:00

so i got an interview yesterday. i thought it went pretty well. the lady that interviewed me actually went to UH and got the same degree as i did so i feel like that it might put me at an advantage. (i hope!) i am suppose to know by the end of the week if i get a 2nd interview or not. i hope so! i know it might not work out especially on the first interview but i need something! i liked the sound of the job and the office looked cool and all. i hate waiting for things to happen.
i am still selling things online. for a week or so i was doing really well and i had sold a lot of stuff. but now things have pretty much stopped and someone even wants to return something because it doesn't "work". my description of the item was accurate and i guess i couldn't verify that it did work before i sent it because i haven't used it in years and i put that on the description. but i sent them a link to a help page for that item. we will see if they actually send it back or not.

class and online selling

2009-03-16T10:45:00.003-05:00

so on thursday and friday i am taking a quickbooks class. at first i didn't really want to take it but mom and dad were really pressuring me to take. so now that i have signed up for it, it doesn't sound too bad. something to add to my resume and it is only a 2 day class. it is all day for 2 days but then i am done. if it goes well, i might take the 2nd quickbook classes. they aren't credit classes but they are continueing education classes. which makes more sense for me to take because i already have a degree and i just really need more skills. they aren't too expensive either. this one was $99. they all are about this much or less. i think it depends on the class and how long it is.
a week or 2 ago i was having a great run of selling things on ebay and amazon. i sold like 5-10 things within a couple of days. i was doing really great. now everything is dead. the only action i have had was someone bidding on my stuff and then asking to cancel. big pain but he did have a good reason to cancel. but the main reason he canceled was that he didn't read the description and then later found out it wasn't compatible with what he had. and then someone wanted to buy something for half the price that i had it listed but since it was a rare item, i was like i might go lower but not that low you know? i haven't heard from them sense. i am slowly going through my room and the stuff that i want to get rid of, i am listing on ebay and amazon to see if i can sell them before just giving them away. why not try to make some money off of them first right?

i am completely hopeless

2009-02-27T09:57:00.003-06:00

does anyone know what joined.com is? here i s the e-mail that mentions it:
Hi Allison,
I am following up on earlier correspondence regarding your job search. I wanted to touch base to see if you are still looking for work in the Clerical/Administrative field or any other industry. The latest postings are found here.
Regards,
Katie Jensen
Recruiter
Dudley Search Group
it is the here part that links me to joined.com. i don't know really why this person sent this e-mail to me because it is kinda pointless. i wish they would just e-mail me if they wanted to offer me a job or interview me. i get excited when i get an e-mail from someone that looks like it might be interested in me and then poof they are just basically sending me an ad for some website. has anyone else gotten any e-mails like this? i don't even know how i got on their list because i haven't even applied to that company.
i hate waiting for any responses from any of the people i have applied with. after a few days i kind of give up hope of hearing from the people i applied with. i would call but half the time there is no number or it is a job that i found on craigslist and they say not to call. sometimes i don't even know where they are located. grrrr. i have even applied to just work at places like krogers and i can't even get a job there! there is something wrong here.
the other day my dad told me that it would probably be pointless to get an mba right now because i should get some experience first and it is so close to my major that i would probably be repeating some classes. which kind of makes sense but i don't know what to do know. i haven't been able to get a job yet and i don't know what else i want to do. it seems like the last 4 years have been pointless because even after getting a degree i still can't get a job.

diploma

2009-02-17T23:41:00.002-06:00

today i recieved my diploma! :) it looks pretty nice but there is one part that is wrinkled a bit. oh well i am just happy to have it finally! the company that prints them also does framing and if you order a frame, they will reprint your diploma so that you will have one in the frame and one for your files or whatever. i am thinking about ordering one. it made me really happy to finally have gotten it. kinda makes it like i really did do it and that it is official. i just wish i could figure out the rest of my life...

road called life

2009-02-10T23:02:00.002-06:00

so i have been filling out job applications and my parents are still on my case about not having a job yet. sorry no one is exactly hiring right now...... i can't force myself on someone until they give me a job. i am still going to take the gmat and apply for graduate school. i hope they at least except me.
for the first time i am really scared for my life. i am not sure that my parents want me to talk about this but we sold one of our cars and the guy wants to return it and is really making me scared since he knows where we live. i thought about justing going on vacation to like disney world (the most carefee place in the world!) but then i looked at plane ticket prices and hotel prices and ticket prices to get into disney world and i realized that it is really expensive to do that. i could probably afford it but it is so expensive. the hotel room would be over $1000 for a couple of days! and so would the plane tickets. for tickets to disney world it would be like $250 for a few days! it is $75 a day!
life sucks.

old picture

2009-01-19T10:35:00.002-06:00

so i finished scanning and editing all my old pictures. it was fun to through all the pictures and to see how weird we used to be. i was thinking about posting them on facebook but i don't know if some poeple would want them on there.

travel

2009-01-12T19:17:00.002-06:00

i really feel like i need to get out of here for a little while. i was thinking about going on a trip but i don't know if anyone would want to come with me. i don't want to go alone. i was thinking about going to england. i would like to make use of my passport.

cleaning up and out

2009-01-11T18:41:00.002-06:00

so today it felt like i had just too much stuff. i really felt like i needed to get ride of all kinds of stuff. but a lot of it is like old letters and notes or things that you don't want to get ride of it because you got it on a trip or you made it at camp or something like that. i just feel like if i gave something away, the next day i would wish that i had it back you know? i think that if i had my own apartment or house, i wouldn't feel that way anymore because i would be able to put everything in its own place. like i want to have a library room for all my books and then that would clear up at least 50% of my room. i would be able to displace stuff that i want and hang up all kinds of pictures and stuff. i guess i thought selling stuff on ebay and amazon would be better than they have been. oh well.

graduate school

2009-01-04T00:04:00.002-06:00

so my parents are like you need to apply to graduate school. so i am starting to look into it. i think i may be able to get into sam houston. i have no idea. i first need to take the tests i guess. but i like any schools that do not require any essays or recommendations or anything hard. i have no idea who i would get recommendations from. i would ask some of my teachers but i am afriad they would laugh at me or not remember me when i would ask them for a recommendation. i am so lame.

Happy 2009!

2009-01-01T17:56:00.002-06:00

i really hope this year is better than last year. i guess these are my resolutions this year or at least what i want to accomplish this year. they are almost the same thing.

Get a job. or Get into graduate school. either one will do. i want to have some kind of plan for the future. i want to figure out what i am going to do with my life. i thought that after getting the diploma, i would have things figured out but i am a long way from that.
lose weight. that is always on my resolution list and it probably will be always on my list. i am mostly ok with my weight. i just want to be able to keep moving and enjoy life. i don't think i will ever be able to be like the people you see on tv that are so heavy that they can't get out of bed. i don't think i could do that. i would be so bored. and i don't think i could stand to see myself like that either.
i would like to finish scanning all my old pictures into my computer. that is a project that stopped when i was scanning stuff and nearly broke my dad's computer. but that was just a coincidence because the computer happened to feak out at the same time as when i was working on it and it still isn't my fault. but i want to get my own scanner to finish it.
i want to finish getting all our home videos onto dvds. that has kinda hit a stopping point too. A) we cannot find all of our old videos and B) my computer freezes up when i try to edit stuff.
i would like to work out more. i go to 24 hour fitness but not that regularly. i was also kinda hoping to get a wii to use the fitness games and that hasn't work out either. everyone is sold out of the wii and my mom said that she was going to get it for me for christmas. another dissappointment. she was going to get it last year too but that never happened either.
i would like to travel this year. i haven't gone anywhere in like 5 years. but that cost money which i don't have enough of to have a nice vacation without worrying about being broke afterwards.

hopefully i can accomplish some of these resolutions. my year would be really bad if i didn't do at least 1 of them.

dissappointment

2009-01-01T17:33:00.003-06:00

so does anyone out there ever have great expectations for birthdays or christmas or graduation and then always get dissappointed? like i thought for graduation, i thought i would get more than a couple of cards. i always here about people that get really nice cars or for some people some kind of body enhancement. i was kinda hoping for a new car especially since i have been having such bad luck with the cars that my parents let me drive. or i thought that my parents would get me a really nice computer since mine is starting to do wierd stuff! (it freezes up every time i try to edit some videos! and that is after i upgraded the memory). and it seems like everyone was always making fun of me during christmas and for once it wasn't about my weight. and all everyone could talk about is that i need to find a job and what kind of job i should get and all that. no wonder i spent so much time in my room this christmas. i just couldn't stand it anymore. i don't mind some help but it was really starting to bug me and it started to feel like i was a bum or something for not already having a job. i started to feel real ashamed of myself. i feel like a real dissappointment to everyone. i don't have plans for right after graduation and i didn't have all kinds of awards and stuff at graduation. i feel like i need to get out of here away from everyone but of course i don't have the money or the job so i feel stuck. i don't even own any cars to get away in. i don't think i could just leave with one of my parent's cars. i think it would be stealling if i didn't plan on coming back.
sorry about all this to anyone that reads this. i am just feeling really down today. maybe it is also that we are taking down christmas decorations. which i don't really want to do anyway especially when i put them all up myself. i hate it when i have to do 90% of the work and get no credit.

no jobs here

2008-12-30T16:08:00.002-06:00

so christmas break has been pretty good. but it seemed like anyone wanted to talk to me about was if i had gotten a job yet. did i have any interviews that day or any question related to getting a job. it is really getting on my nerves ok! NO i don't know what i want to do and NO i haven't had any job interviews recently. i am sorry that not that many people have jobs open and no i am not going to apply to mcdonalds.....i didn't just spend 4 years in college to work there. i think i should get a better job than that. i guess that sounds bad but seriously! i wouldn't mind being a manager there but not many of those jobs open right now. sometimes i just want to get up a leave and go somewhere else but every time i say that, my parents laugh at me saying that i wouldn't do that. ha! sometimes i just want to show them. i just don't know what i want to do.
sorry for all the complaining. it just bothers me that everyone seems to be on my case.

winter fun

2008-12-11T18:36:00.002-06:00

so last night it actually snowed here! it was awesome. it didn't stay on the ground where i live but there were lots of nearby areas that actually had snow stay on the ground! :)
so i am working on christmas shopping. i am like half way done. tomorrow i am getting my hair cut. i am also going to try to finish up shopping tomorrow.
in a week ainsley and my grandma are coming home. and in a week from saturday, i will be graduating! i hope to have my shopping done by the time everyone comes home. christmas is in 2 weeks.
i went to the dentist the other day and it ended up i have cavities so i went today to get them filled in. so my mouth was numb.

i am done with school!

2008-12-05T08:38:00.002-06:00

so i am done with school! :) i already know i have an A and a B but i am not sure about my other 2 grades. i know i at least got a B in one other class. but i am not sure about statistics. it feels good not to have to worry about studying or doing homework.
i was able to sell one of my statistics books yesterday but i have another copy to sell. i have someone that is interested but we haven't really set a day/time to do it. so it is not official.
it is pretty cold outside. we actually have the heat on and i am wearing long pants and sweaters and stuff.

stuff

2008-12-03T18:47:00.004-06:00

so i put up flyers around school to try to sell my stats book. they won't take it back at the bookstore because it is one of the books that is not bound so once you open the package, they won't buy it back. so i finally got someone interested. but we haven't actually met to exchange money/books so it isn't officially sold yet but i am on the way there. and i guess yesterday started my good luck in selling things again. someone bought one of my listings on amazon. i have sold 12 things so it averages out to be once a month because i started selling stuff last november on amazon. after school is out, i am really going to go through my room and clean it out. i really feel like i have too much stuff. i might sell some of it but i will probably end up donating a lot of stuff. i hope a lot of people buy a lot of my listings for christmas.
so today i took my 2nd to last test of college! tomorrow i have my statistics test. it will be my last test of college unless i go back for graduate school or something. i already know that i made an A in one of my management classes. and i think i will be getting Bs in my other management classes. and i am not sure about statistics. i can either get a B, C, or D. i can't get an A because i would have to get like a 115 or something. and i can't fail because i would have to get a negative number for that so i am feelling pretty good about it.

the end of the semester!

2008-12-02T20:05:00.002-06:00

i only have 2 more days left of school! yay! i just have 2 tests left! i am 99% positive that i will pass and graduate! i can't believe that it is almost here! i sent out graduation announcements today to a couple of people. if you want an announcement, just e-mail me or comment on this post. i am also getting ready to send out Christmas cards. if you want one, do the same as above!
when i ordered my graduation announcements in october, i got a comfirmation e-mail. it had a spelling mistake on my name. so i e-mailed them to correct it and they said they would. well guess what happened? they still had a spelling mistake! but thank goodness, it was just in the address labels. so i still sent out some to people that really know me and know how to spell my name. and i am not sure how many will notice it. oh well. i email them and they are going to send me new address labels for free. so i guess i will wait to send out more. i am not sure who else to send them to anyway.
the good news is that i have started christmas shopping! :) well i ordered something online so i needed to do it early anyway. i think i can get the rest at the regular store.

3 weeks left!

2008-11-11T21:56:00.002-06:00

so after this week, i only have 3 weeks left of school. that includes the week of thanksgiving which i only go to school for 2 days. after this week i am practically done. i would be finished with 2 of my classes. the other 2 classes just have last test on december 3 and 4! then i have to wait 2 weeks to actually graduate. i need to start looking for a job again. i have been so busy lately that i haven't really been looking. i went to a job fair like a month ago and handed out a lot of resumes and i have my resume online and i have applied to a couple of places online too. i am kinda dissappointed that i haven't heard from anyone. whatever. i will get back into it soon. i just need to get through this week.

1 month of school

2008-11-04T23:22:00.002-06:00

so 1 month from today i will be taking my last test in college! but it seems like all my teachers are having everything due during this week and next week. but after that i can relax for a couple of weeks before my last test! :) i am ready for graduation. but i know once i graduate, my parents are really going to get on me to find a job. i am having a feeling that it will be pretty hard. i am more scared of that than trying to get through the next couple of weeks. i know i am going to have a tough time trying to find a job. a lot of ones that i think will sound interesting, i read the part that say must have so many years of experience...... HA! i don' t have that! sorry!

president obama

2008-11-04T23:19:00.002-06:00

we are going to have to get used to that. oddly i am ok with it. i am getting used to it. i wasn't sure who was going to win so which ever one won i would still be surprised. i kinda wish hilary would have won but that is ok. this year we would have made history no matter who won. i think it will be an interesting 4 years. and i am tired of all the political commercials on tv. i hate all the commercial talking about all the mistakes someone has made. sorry we are all human.

Part time job!

2008-10-19T18:19:00.003-05:00

so i have a part time job for the next month or so. i am on the early election signature ballot verification committe. i think that is what it is called. anyway i basically check to make sure that the signature on the ballot matches the signature on the early voting application. i make $7 an hour. :)
i also got my graduation announcements yesterday. i need to look at them to make sure they gave me the right number and spelled my name right and all that.

graduation

2008-10-05T15:20:00.002-05:00

so i bought my cap and gown for graduation. they sell it to you by height. so i went and asked if i could try it on to make sure it fits. they were like no just pick out your height and it should fit but if it doesn't, you can return it. so of course i get home and it doesn't fit! typical! so i now have to go back and return it and figure out which one would fit. when i was graduating from cy-fair they had it so you can try on samples and then buy the one that fit. so you knew that you were buying something that fit. UH sure does seem to do things backwards.
the good thing is that i ordered my graduation announcements. hopefully they will arrive with no mistakes.

first job interview

2008-10-05T15:11:00.003-05:00

so last tuesday i had a job interview at primerica. it started out alright. they gave a presentation. it sounded alright until i started asking questions. i found out that they offer NO benefits and it is ALL comission on sales. no base salary at all. you can ended up making a lot of money. but there is no gaurantee at all. and first you have to go get a license too. you can't earn any money until you get it. you can go and work with someone at the company while you are doing that but you will earn NOTHING until that happens. i am looking for a job that has at least some gaurentee of benefits and salary. so i ended up being so disappointed. it started out great because they were like you can make TONS OF MONEY! they kept pushing that. but they didn't want to talk about how there are NO BENEFITS! then they started to pressure me to accept a job right then and everything. i couldn't do that. so i was like GIVE ME A FEW DAYS ALRIGHT!!! especially since i had 2 tests last week. so for everyone looking at them be careful! don't be pressured into doing anything with them. i am not sure i like how they operate anyway.

i love school computers!

2008-09-22T10:40:00.002-05:00

so i have been getting to know the school computers very well! since i STILL don't have power, i am on the school computers to check my e-mail and do school work and print stuff. i don't want to use my laptop that much because once the battery dies, i don't have a place to charge it really unless i take it with me to school. we finally got a generator and i guess i could charge my computer on that but i would rather use the power for fans and tv and the refrigerator and lights. our cable is out because we tried to watch cable but it wouldn't come in. so we are using the bunny ears to watch the basic channels but i still got my simpsons fix last night! :) part of my neighborhood has power but my block doesn't have power. i am not sure what is going on but i hope they fix it soon! but i am happier because i can finally print my homework at school!! so that is taking a stress off. i hope to post pictures soon!!

hurricane ike

2008-09-17T11:17:00.003-05:00

so hurricane ike has come and gone. we lost power about 10pm on friday night. so we all went to bed. the winds were starting to get pretty bad. about 3am i moved downstair and slept in my parent's bathroom. at about 4am i was up and i look outside. i noticed that one of our trees wasn't straight anymore. it ended up falling and breaking a set of windows in my living room. we have a tarp set in there until we fix it. it took us 4 days to clean up. we had someone come by and chop up the the fallen tree. but it seemed like we had it the worst on our street. some people in the neighborhood don't seem to be affected at all!!!! then there are some like us. and some in between. but every day during the clean up, i was so tired afterwards. we still don't have power so the only time i can get on the internet is at school or at some place that lets us get on the internet like yesterday i was a panera bread. i wish we would get power NOW! we have been going out to eat a lot the past few days because a lot of stuff that we have has gone bad. and we can only grill out which is what we did the first few days. we have been sleeping with the windows open to let the cool air in. it is so lucky that we are having a cool front. but i think we might all get sick with having the windows open and the cold air coming in.

anyone out there?

2008-09-09T23:06:00.002-05:00

i know i am not much on commenting on peoples blogs (well i only read like 3 that are out there.....) but i do comment when i feel strongly about something or really feel like saying something. but i always wonder who is visiting my blog. maybe i should call this the roll call post or something. i would like to meet the people that are reading my blog. comment please and introduce yourself! if i already know you, just say hi! and add a stupid comment or something!
instead of my knees hurting, my left foot hurts. i used to get those charlie horses all the time and a lot of times during swim practice (which really hurts by the way!) i wonder if this is connected to that. like if i sit for a while and then get up, it hurts to walk on. then once i walk around for a while it would stop hurting and feel normal again. maybe i should take more vitamins.
tomorrow i am actually going to take my computer to school! i just hope it doesn't get broken/stolen. i need to take it because tomorrow is sign up day to schedule my first statistics test (which is taken on a computer at school so that is why we have to sign up to take it and no partial credit no fair!) and i have to sign up my group presentation day and i want to be able to have the best pick. anyway on mondays and wednesday i always get there so early and way before my class times so i always get bored and end up finishing a book while i wait. parking is so ridiculus at school. i get to school by 9:30 and the parking lots are all almost full! i always end up parking almost out by the highway! it is so bad and they are talking about shutting down another parking lot to build a parking garage. that is after they shut down a parking lot to build graduate lofts! (why i ask you! most graduate students i know either have families or don't want to live on campus anyway! what is the point? why not just upgrade one of the dorms? the dorms need to be redone anyway.) UH really needs to watch what they do with parking. they oversell the parking garage and really need more parking lots to handle all the commuters. they don't seem to get that like 75% of the students are commuters. everyone i talk to does not live on campus. i know some that live like 5 minutes from campus. but they still need to drive to school.

new church building

2008-09-08T22:11:00.002-05:00

so this summer my church moved into the the new church building. i was kinda against the new building for many reasons:

i have been going to trinity for my WHOLE LIFE. i have been going to church services in now the old church. it is cute and a place that i can actually imagine having my wedding in.
the new place reminds me of those tv churches. they are now actually using projectors to put up bible verses and songs on the wall. what is wrong with using the hymnals and bibles that are in the pew? if you just tell people what the bible verse is, they won't learn how to look it up themselves and they will just end up taking the pastor word for it that that is actually what that verse is. kinda reminds me of when in the 1500 when the bible was in a foriegn language that nobody but the preist could understand and most of the population couldn't read anyway and they had to take the preist's word for it and the preist could say whatever they want.
the old church had no problems with it. for most of the year, we could fit everyone in. it is only when christmas and easter came around that we had seating problems. lets face it, there are only people that will come on the holidays and no matter how big or new the church is, they will only come a couple times a year.
they have now totally changed the service schedule. there are now only 2 church times and there used to be 3. and they just had to take away the time that we liked to go to. they have made it all confusing.
this last point is i guess a good thing. they did not tear down the old church. yay! they are converting it to a youth building. i have seen pictures. it is kinda wierd to look at. maybe after the 4th new church building they have learned their lesson. the first 2 churches that trinity had they tore down and rebuilt on top. my mom told me that the church was always divided on the subject of getting new churches. we came right after the old church was built and mom heard all the stories.

i guess it doesn't really matter what i think. i might not be going there much longer. i don't know what i will be doing after i graduate. i may be moving far far away. and i am not exactly someone that volunteers for 6million things at the church. there isn't that many things for me to be involved in anymore. when i was younger there was all the junior high and high school groups and the little kids all have things that they can do. then you have the older adult groups. there is suppose to be a college sunday school class but half the time i don't know where they meet. one time they said they would be at starbucks....nope! so i stopped trying and now that i am about to graduate... a college group is not what i need. there used to be a young adults group but i can't find a thing about them anymore. i want to get more active again.

home videos

2008-09-06T22:49:00.002-05:00

so i am taking all of our home vidoes and putting them on my nice 500 gb external hard drive and then i am going to edit them and organize them and put them onto a dvd. or several dvds. anyway the software i have that i am using will play the video as it is downloading it and so i have to watch it. anyway i want to take notes on what is on what tape so i can label things. anyway i am finding old christmas videos and easter videos. most of it is swimming but there is a lot of good old memories. and we actually have video of little ben when he was like 7 and he is running around and enjoying himself. made me so happy to see that. anyway i have only seen the stuff that is for our current video camera. so the next step is to find the old tapes for the our old camera that broke like 15 years ago. that stuff will probably be even better. my grandma brought a couple of tapes for me to download and we have just watched those on the regular VCR and they are from when i was like 5 and they are great! it is going to be fun doing this project. it is going to take me forever but i am enjoying it. most of the time is going to be downloading the videos. i already have an idea on how i want to edit and arrange things. i am glad that this semester isn't going to be too hard so i can spend lots of time on this. by thanksgiving, i will only have a week left of school! i have no finals! after thanksgiving, i have a last test in statistics. i am done with school on december 4th! but i am actually considering maybe getting my MBA but i think i might wait a couple of years and get a couple of years of work experience or at least figure out what i really want to do. maybe if i don't get a job, i will apply for next year or something.

spam and selling stuff

2008-09-02T22:21:00.002-05:00

i still get a ton of spam emails......like a 100 a day at least! most of it goes to the spam folder but still it is a pain to see that all the time.......i have to delete it because i can't stand it sitting there and building up and taking up space.
i am selling a razr on ebay and the bidding has only gotten up to $5.50 and the auction ends tomorrow. also the person that is wining is from ukraine. i am not sure it will work over there and i have put up plenty of notices about it might not work in other countries and i guess they don't want to pay attention to that. i think i talked about the message i put up but i am not sure that anybody has read it on here. i am glad that i put a reserve of $75 on it. because it is definitly worth more than $5.50. especially since i spent $45 to fix the screen and it has all the chargers and manuals and everything. i just wish that the person who won it last time had actually paid the $75 he bid on it!
this week will be nice and short. only 3 days of school and then a 3 day weekend. :)
i put a wanted ad up on craigslist because i want to find a vw beetle. i hope i get some real email responses because when we were selling a car on there, we got a couple of scam e-mails. if people would actually spend the time that they use on scamming people and actually do real work, people would be a lot happier. facebook has tons of scammers now too. i put up a book on the marketplace thing last night and already this morning i had a scam message. they wanted to know all my information so that they could wire me money or something for the book. it makes me so mad! it is a waste of my time to have to go through all the junk that i get.

EBAY

2008-08-30T20:29:00.002-05:00

i am very nervous about selling the razr phone on ebay. i had one return on it and one person that didn't pay. i relisted it the other day and i am having a person from another country bidding on it. i have posted on the description that they need to check to make sure that it is supported overseas. so i posted another note on the description, in red and caps, that they need to make sure it is supported before bidding and that i will not accept returns if it is not supported and they won. i hope i did the right thing. i just feel jinxed with that phone. i have never had so much trouble with an item before. it still has 5 days on the auction so hopefully someone in the us will win it so i don't have to worry.
i kinda hope that the hurricane will come close to us so i can have more time off. i guess you can say i have senioritis. i will only have 3 days of classes this week anyway but still that would be cool if all 3 days were cancelled! then i would have a whole week off after 1 week of school. but you can't blame me because i only had a week of summer vacation. and i didn't get to actually go anywhere.

last semester of college!

2008-08-30T12:13:00.004-05:00

so i finished my last first week of school! my classes seem to be pretty easy. i have 2 group projects though. i hate group projects. i know at least 1 person in every class except for statistics. i like my teachers. i have already applied for graduation. probably around october or november i will probably start getting really excited about graduation.
so for about 3 weeks i have been saving my spam and letting it build up in my spam folder. i have 2681 spam e-mails. i can't stand it anymore i just have to delete it all. it is getting on my nerves. it has slowed down a little bit. i used to get about a 1000 a week but i think this week it slowed down because if i had really gotten a 1000 a week it would be over a 3000 emails. oh well it is gone.

stuff

2008-08-20T14:43:00.003-05:00

so i finally got my management grade up and i ended up getting a B+ instead of a B! so i am happy about that!
so i was looking at all the spam i have been getting and some of it has the wrong date. some of it is from 2038! how do that get it like that? that is clue number one when i am going through e-mail to see if it is spam. sometimes it comes with the wrong date but i have no idea how they do that.
it has been raining a lot here this week. i love rain. and i have been really lucky in that i can still take murphy on all of his walks. i have had great timing except for this morning, it sprinkled on us. oh well at least it didn't poor!

grades

2008-08-19T23:23:00.002-05:00

so i found out my finance grade. i ended up getting a C-. i did terrible on the final. if i had done better i could have gotten a B. oh well i just needed to pass the class to get credit. i think that is a good grade for the class because it is summer school and the teacher is very hard. the final was nothing like the sample final she gave out. i could do that just fine. i just wish she could have given us a formula sheet. i think i would have done a lot better with that. but my management teacher has not turned in the grades to the school so i have a NR for my grade and i don't want him to forget to turn them in because i need that class and since i am graduating in december, i don't want anything to mess up those chances. anyway i know i got a B in that class. surprisingly the C- didn't bring down my gpa that much. if i get all As this next semester i can get above a 3.0! that is what i am shooting for. right now i am in between a B and B- gpa. a little bit closer to a B gpa.

spam again

2008-08-17T10:59:00.001-05:00

so i have gotten over a 1000 spam e-mails in a week. that must be a record. i wish i knew where to look that up. does anyone know?

olympics

2008-08-16T23:20:00.002-05:00

it is pretty awesome! michael phelps has gotten 8 GOLD MEDALS! i was so excited! and dara torres is pretty awesome too. to be able to get medals in the olympics when you are 41 is amazing. i am sad that the swimming is over. gymanstics and track are a pretty good watch too. today we watched trampoline. which i had no idea was an olympic sport. there was this guy in that event named dong dong. and then my dad is like it is a good thing he isn't named ding dong. i laughed so hard!
so an update on how many spam e-mails i have gotten: 975! i think that is a record. tomorrow will make it a week. somebody help me figure out if there is some kind of record for that!

spam

2008-08-15T17:23:00.002-05:00

so i must be on some mega list for spam or something! so in the 5 days that i have decided to not delete my spam and to see how fast it would build up, i have gotten 800 spam emails. is that sad or what? what is the most you have gotten in one day or week or however often you check your email? and yes i would like responses on that!

vacation!

2008-08-13T10:33:00.002-05:00

so i am now officially on summer vacation for a week and half! i had my last final yesterday. now i just have to wait for my grades. i sometimes think that is the hardest part. i am pretty positive that i past. even my finance class. i think i had to get like a 20 to pass the class. but an 80 to get a B. i am hoping that i get a B but i guess i would be happy with a passing grade too. just as long as i get credit for the class. i don't really want to have to repeat the class. i also like having only 4 classes on my schedule. it is a lot easier. and i don't want to have to take finance and statistics together. once i get my grades back i am going to apply for graduation! i have to apply before september 17 or something like that. i might even make a visit to my advisor before i apply too.
so i have lots of cleaning up to do that was neglected during summer school.
so i am still waiting for that guy to pay for the phone i sold on ebay. but i told him that i will give him until friday to pay. i kinda would like to report them to ebay. but i guess there is no garrentee that i will be able to sell it again.

spam

2008-08-11T11:40:00.002-05:00

swimming is awesome! last nights relay was so amazing!
so i get so much spam every day that i have decided to stop deleting it and let it start building up in my spam folder. i just want to see how fast it builds up. it has been about a day and half and i already have over 200 spam emails. i want to see how fast it gets up to 1000. i wonder if there is a limit in how much you can have in your spam folder. i wonder if it gets to certian point that yahoo will just delete it. i know they delete it after 30 days but i wonder if they would ever delete it before that. maybe we will see how much i get in 3o days. maybe i will go for a record. is there a record? maybe i can set one if there isn't one.
today and tomorrow are my last days of summer school. then i start school again on august 25. but it will be my last semester! i can't believe it.

lots of stuff

2008-08-10T13:56:00.003-05:00

so my parents have really started looking for a new house. they are looking at getting a townhouse downtown so that they don't have to drive so far everyday to work. especially in the current gas prices. the idea all started with my dad. so then i said we should get a lakehouse if we get a smaller place downtown. spend the week downtown and the weekends and holidays and vacations at the lakehouse. it doesn't sound like a bad idea. and if we ended up moving before i finished school, i would have a shorter commute too. i have a longer commute than my parents too. but who know how long it will take my parents to find a place they like? this could take years like how it took 2 years to paint the outside of our house. so it may not even affect me except where i go home for christmas. but if i end up working downtown i like the townhouse idea. anyway we have just been driving around looking at houses but today my dad is actually going to meet my mom and they might actually look inside a couple. it would be really weird if they came home and said they bought a house. i know it doesn't work that quickly but they might have bid on one or something. not likely though.
i only have 2 days left of summer school. i should be studying but i can't concentrate. so far i have an A in my management class and i am inbetween in finance. if i do well on my final in finance i can get a B but if i don't i would get a C. i don't really care if i get a C or not because so many people seem to fail that class. someone got an 8 on the last test. too bad they can't drop the class because it was already after the drop date. i have gotten 78 and a 76 on the test. the second test i made lots of stupid mistakes. but if i get an 80 or higher i will get a B. hopefully i can get a B so that all the good grades i have gotten recently won't be hurt by finance. i am so close to getting over a 3.0 gpa. but at least i have another semester to raise my gpa. and i don't know if a C will do that much damage. A D will hurt my gpa though.
i am still waiting for the person to pay me for the phone i sold on ebay. i have sent them several messages but no response. so i sent them a message to pay by this coming friday. that would have given them 2 weeks to pay for it. i think that is pretty reasonable considering lots of sellers on ebay require immediate payment or payment within 3 days. some let you go as far as 10 days but i don't know if i have seen anyone that lets you go 2 weeks. one person that bought an old bsb calendar from me took 10 days to pay but she had contacted me before bidding to ask for a little time and i had said yes if she won and i end up get $20 for it so it was worth it. but with no contact at all is bad. so on friday i will send in a unpaid report to ebay and hopefully they will get the person to pay or make it so that they don't charge any fees and i can relist it.

my online stores

2008-08-07T22:09:00.002-05:00

so the exciting part is that i sold another textbook online. i have sold almost 20 things online between ebay and amazon. i also have sold textbooks for more than i would have gotten from the bookstore.
i guess the joke is on me. i was so excited when i sold my old phone for $75. and i was laughing at the guy that had returned it to me (see previous posts). anyway it has been almost a week and they haven't paid. so i am getting worried that they won't pay. it is a good thing that i can send ebay after them and hopefully i can get my money or i can relist it. see the links to my stores (in the links section to the right) and maybe you can find something you would like. i will probably put up more stuff while i am on vacation.
my diet is going well. i have lost about 25 pounds. sunday is the last day of the scary hard diet part. i will probably go more towards a weight watchers diet after this.

ebay

2008-08-04T19:26:00.002-05:00

i am so excited! i have listed a couple of items and they go quickly! i listed this cube thing yesterday and someone bought it today! another item did the same thing last week. and i thought that they would be there forever. some things have to be listed several times before they sell.
school has been cancelled for tomorrow! i am excited! a day off. and i have less than a week left until summer school is over! i need to go to the career office soon so maybe i can get my resume in good condition and out there so then i could get interviews! that is 1 thing that i am scared about after graduation is not being able to find a job.

summer surprises

2008-08-03T17:35:00.002-05:00

it has been so hot and dry here lately. so today about an hour ago, we got a sudden huge thunderstorm. it is nice to get rain. we haven't gotten much rain here this summer. i think we were like 7 inches behind where we should have been or something like that.
so i have been selling stuff on ebay. i have sold 9 things since the begining of july. i think that is pretty good. i got about 11 things left on there. it seems every day i am adding new things to the list. during my week off, i am planning to clean out/organize my room and i will probably be adding more suff soon. i don't know. it is kinda fun to sell stuff online. here is a link to my Ebay store i don't know if i will put a lot of stuff up there or not. i just want to make a little money off what i am trying to get rid of. some things i would probably just give away but i guess it depends on the item

stuff

2008-07-30T19:00:00.002-05:00

summer school is almost over! there is like 2 weeks left. that includes finals! i am ready for my week and half off before my last semester in college! that is kinda weird to say! but it feels good to say too.
so i have been taking a thyroid medicine and been on the crazy diet for a while and i have lost 20 pounds! i am so happy/excited. i have a week and half left on the diet. but i am so glad to have fruit back in my regular diet. you would laugh when you hear what i had for lunch.... applesauce and an apple! overdoing it i guess but i can't have bread or cheese so there goes my turkey and cheese sandwich that i used to have for lunch before the crazy diet. but not too long before i can have it again. i don't think i ever want to do this diet again.

ebay

2008-07-27T11:08:00.002-05:00

i am going to be laughing in the face of that guy that returned the phone!! it has been less than 1 day and it is already up to my reserve price of $75! so i am getting almost double what i paid to have it fixed! and there is still 6 days left and i am hoping that more people will bid on it. in your face jerk!

more summer

2008-07-26T22:04:00.004-05:00

so i did pretty well the first summer session. an A and B+. it raised my GPA. i don't know if the second session will go as well. finance is hard. but i am doing a lot better in it than some people are. i just have 3 weeks left of summer school. this will hopefully be my last summer school i will ever have to take. graduation is in sight. i only have 4 classes to take after summer school is over. i am just scared that i won't get a job after i graduate. i am planning to go the career services soon. i have been updating my resume because i think that will be the first thing they ask for. oh! and i finally got my diploma for my AA from cyfair! i am excited. i might get it framed with my UH diploma or at least in matching frames. i might even do the same with my high school diploma.
so my parents took me to this doctor they had heard about on the radio. they thought that they could help me get better. anyway i am on this crazy yeast free diet. the main part is a month long. there is a super long list of things that you can't have especially anything with yeast and sugar. mainly you can have some meats, lots of vegetables, nuts and after 2 weeks you can add back in fruits. so i am almost to that point where i can have fruits again. the past 2 weeks have been so hard. but i am about to be on the easier side and getting closer to when i can add back in my favorite foods again. they also comfirmed how i thought that i had a really slow metabilism. i have been taking this thyroid medicine. i have been on the diet for 2 weeks and the thyroid medicine for almost a month. i have lost close to 20 pounds. i hope to lose 30 pounds total before the month is over.
i have been selling stuff on ebay this month. i put some old calendars on there at first. amazingly people have bought them. 2 were old backstreet boys calendars and 2 were simpsons calendars. then today i sold a peanuts calendar. then i listed an old cell phone that had a cracked screen. i put it in the description that it was cracked and even put a picture up of it. someone bought it. then it got delivered. and the buyer didn't even give it 2 hours before demanding a refund and sending it back even after i told them where they could get it fixed. so i got it back and got it fixed and i am hoping to get triple what i sold it for originally. i would love to laugh in that stupid person's face. so i am going to try to sell more stuff on ebay. i have a store on amazon but my stuff doesn't go too fast on there. once i have sold the stuff i already have on ebay, i will transfer some of my amazon stuff to ebay. if anyone has anything they want to sell, i can try to sell it for you or suggest you start one of your own. basically on ebay you take a picture of your item and write a description and choose a price. then the website does the rest for you. its pretty much the same for amazon but you don't take a picture for amazon.

vacation and graduation

2008-07-01T23:24:00.003-05:00

so i have 1 more class before the first session of summer school is over. i know i got an A in my management class! i can get as high as an A- in my history of globablization class. it depends on how well i do on my final. if i get a 1 on my final i will pass with a D-. i think i have to get a 91 to get an A-and i would have to get over 100 to get an A. but i am hoping for an A- or B. either one will help raise my GPA. i am working on raising my gpa. last semester i was able to raise it up a little. but since i am getting an A this semester i think it will bring it up even more. anyway i have my final on thursday. then i have a long weekend with the 4th of july. then on monday i start my new classes. another management and intro to finance. i have heard that the teacher for finance is really hard but hopefully she will be easier in the summer. it is either it is finance or statistics in the summer and i am not trying statistics in the summer. anyway i just need to keep thinking that i will be graduating in less than 6 months so i can take the pain for a little while. that is a little scary to think about that i am graduating so close. i guess i am more scared about getting a job. what if no one wants to hire me? i didn't want to go through 4 years of college and no summers off and trying to figure out what i want to do to not get a job. i think the most awesome place to work would be google. it sounds like the best place to work. go to youtube and search for google videos. it will give you a bunch of videos on google and how awesome it is.

school and july 4th

2008-06-22T22:43:00.003-05:00

so i have been doing pretty well in summer school so far. i am starting to feel like i am getting really close to graduate. i need to pass at least 3 classes this summer. i have never failed a class yet but it feels good to know that i have some room in my schedule. because if i fail only 1 class, i have free space in my fall schedule to take it over again. i am only taking 4 classes in the fall so i should be ok. i am starting to see the end. i am glad that i am taking summer school. so far it feels worth it.
we are thinking about what to do on the the 4th of july. i was saying maybe we could have a pool party and cookout. but everyone i suggest to have over, my parents are like well they usually go see their family or they probably have plans or something like that. oh well it really doesn't matter.
my dad sold his car a couple weeks ago. so of course he is the one that gets to get a new car. when will it ever be MY turn? my turn should have come about a year ago. i am starting to think we should have sued the pants off the insurance company. then i might actually have gotten a new car!
does anyone else get any incredible amount of spam everyday? in any given day i can get as much as 100 spam e-mails. i guess i wouldn't mind a few but 100 seems to be too much! i don't even know how i get on these lists!
last night was scary! we had someone walking around in our backyard! we have a metal fence that runs down the middle of the backyard and we heard it open and close. it really makes a noise when someone goes through it. after i heard the person leave the backyard i looked out the front window and i saw a black truck and some people standing around it. i have no idea who they were. so we had the police officer that is suppose to patrol our neighborhood come over and look around. the people had left by the time that the police officer came. i hope they don't come back. it made me scared and i am starting to like my dad's idea of moving. my neighborhood might not be as safe as it used to be.

adopting a dog part 2

2008-06-17T09:34:00.002-05:00

so we have adopted zoe. i think i am having a lot more trouble ajusting than she is. i have been crying for no reason for the past 2 days. i feel so terrible and i have no idea why. maybe i am regretting adopting her. which is probably making me feel worse. i probably should not have adopted a puppy. maybe i should have gotten an older dog, or maybe i should have waited a while longer and actually thought it through a little bit longer. i feel so stupid but she is very cute! i have no idea what to do. there was another family that wanted zoe. i kinda feel like i should have let them have her.

adopting a dog

2008-06-12T21:21:00.002-05:00

i have been looking at adopting a dog for a while now. we found one that we liked at this meet and greet thing last weekend. so i filled out an aplication and we are going to have house visit tomorrow. so we may get to get her on sunday. i am so excited but i am also so nervous and scared. it is like half of me is like i want a dog now! and the other half is like i am not sure i want a dog. i guess i am just so afraid that i wouldn't make it happy and take care of it as well as someone else would or something crazy like that. i am scared that she wouldn't love me as i love her. and what if she doesn't get along with murphy? i feel like i have gone completely nuts. i hope it works out.

summer school

2008-05-23T18:09:00.002-05:00

so i guess i am ready for summer school. i am enrolled and paid for the summer. i am ready to get school all over with. just this summer and next fall and then i will be done. i hope i can do as well as i did last semester. all A's and B's no B- or anything. raised my gpa up a little bit too. hopefully i can get it up a little more before i graduate. i hope to get an A in statistics in the fall so that will definitely help a lot.
mom and dad are letting me get a dog. but it is really hard. i am not sure which one to get or even where to get it.

school and other stuff

2008-05-05T16:43:00.003-05:00

so i am done with 3 classes and i just have my statistics final left on wednesday! i already know that i got a B in intro to human resources and a B+ in economics of globalization. i am pretty sure that i will get a B in my english class and an A in statistics. i think that this semester will raise my GPA. i now just have to get through summer school and the fall semester and i will get to graduate from UH!!
on friday i am having my hair cut. i haven't had a hair cut since october i think. i love getting hair cuts because at least my hair always feel so good afterwards and they can style it so much better than i could have done.
we are getting a new couch today. on saturday we went to the dump and we found a couch that we really like and it is so comfortable!
i have found that i like strawberry daquries! i am not sure if i spelled that right but hopefully you guys know what i am talking about!

singing

2008-04-17T23:01:00.002-05:00

i have always liked to sing. not necessarily in front of people but i always sing to the radio on the way to school and in my room by myself. anyway i think it would be so much fun to write my own songs and then record them. then i thought it would be so cool to have my own recording room in my own house and all that. i went on youtube and did you know that you can actually build your own recording studio in your house. there are videos of people doing that! it is so cool. i wish i could do that. anyway i might do that when i get my own place and actually write songs. but i don't know how easy/hard it could be. but hopefully it would be fun. i remember when i first heard of hanson, we used to want to learn how to play instruments and form a band. it would still be cool to do that.
i have found out that i don't have classes on my birthday! :) how lucky is that? exactly one week until my birthday!

graduation and the end of school

2008-04-08T23:06:00.003-05:00

so this semester i am graduating from cy-fair college. i thought i would take the one extra english class and get my AA. i don't know if i already talked about that or not. anyway i was like what if something horrible happens and i can't take the rest of my classes at UH? then i would definitly be glad that i got the AA. anyway yesterday i got my cap and gown. and actually i think they are the same color as the ones that will be used at UH graduations. maybe i will be able to reuse it in december when i graduate from UH. anyway for anyone that would want to come it is on may 10 at 12pm. it really isn't a big deal. i am just getting it because all i had to take was 1 class so i am taking it.
there is only a couple of weeks left of class. most of my class i am doing pretty well in. i have an A in statistics, at least a B in management (i am hoping to get at least a B+ or maybe even an A- in there). i think i will end up with a B in english. so far if i don't do anything else in english, i know i will pass. i am not sure how i am doing in the economics of globalization class. i am pretty sure i will pass. i am hoping for a B but i guess i will be happy if i just pass. that teacher is just a pain. she has an accent so sometimes you really have to listen to understand. also she just reads from the slides and doesn't fully explain everything. really if i just looked at the slides, i know mostly what she would say during class.
my birthday is in 2 weeks. birthdays don't seem to be that exciting anymore. mostly i would be happy if people would just remember and say happy birthday.

my birthday

2008-04-04T09:21:00.002-05:00

so my birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks. i was thinking about having a party but i am not sure it is a good idea. the big birthday was last year but there isn't anything special about turning 22. i was thinking about just having a party at my house and kind of having just like a swim party/cookout. but i don't know if anyone would be that interested. maybe i should just put the invites out there and see if anyone is interested. i should probably ask my parents for permission first.

it has been almost 4 years!

2008-03-26T23:01:00.002-05:00

it has been almost 4 years since i started this blogging thing! i was looking at all my old post. it brings back lots of memories and thoughts. do any of you guys go back and look at your old posts?